same here :)

like it’s bad BAD but i kind of want to get worse?????? idk

yeah i am back after disappearing AGAIN but i feel that when i am very very into my ed i can’t post or say how bad things are because i don’t want to trigger anyone

a glass of wine, a joint, a hot water bottle and my cozy cute game, this day can’t get any better

i’ve been drinking so much water that i should just move to the bathroom so i can pee all day

just a rant because i don’t really have anyone else to talk about it
i feel bad to want their attention when they are also feeling bad, i offer my support because i want to and i know people need someone on these times so i am that someone to my friends

sometimes i wish people cared about me, i don’t know if it’s okay or if i’m being too needy
my 3 closest friends are depressed and also going through shit but i always talk to them and check if they’re ok and i feel like i don’t really get asked if i am okay, idk if i’m right for feeling like this

i hope this depressive episode makes me lose at least 6kg, it has to be good for something so…

oh no, sending you much love and strength to go through this tough time! i hope your mom gets better and that you can take a break. also don’t worry, it’s good to speak about our burdens, it takes some of the weight off 🤍

i feel like i am becoming just a frame of what i used to be and i don’t even care i am tired i just want to sleep and bed rot

yea so i guess i am the invisible child and i will ever be no matter what i do but i am fine!!! its all fine!!!!

yes please, also tell me why did i think it was a good idea to cut my bangs one day before 😭 i’m not even on my own team i guess lol

i am so sorry that you are going through this, i’m sorry for all these losses, take care of yourself and do things one day at a time if possible, i hope it gets better for you

so i can only shit once a week i know it’s not normal but i don’t know what to do anymore, i drink a lot of water and eat fiber so what am i doing wrong???

my mom said i lost weight and honestly it’s just fuel to keep me going because this is all i wanted to hear from her, it’s the first time she said this to me and not something like “you need to lose weight” or “you can’t get more fat or this won’t look good on you” or any other comment about my body

i just want to schedule an appointment with a doctor to see what’s wrong with me but none of them are available, one of them even said they could only see me in august, imagine if i was living in pain lol

progress!! it’s great when you see the changes and how far you’ve come 🤍 i am so happy for you

i’ve been feeling terrible lately, my whole body hurts and i am always tired but can’t really sleep so i guess that’s my life now

also i think i just got the flu and i feel terrible and weak and my throat hurts 😭

my current favorite game has a very skinny main character and it’s a little triggering sometimes because she’s perfection and i am a blob sitting in front of the screen

everything is fine but i feel like shit and i don’t even have a good reason to feel bad

i actually lost a little weight last month and i am so locked in but today i am so hungry that i can’t even think about anything else

oh this must hurt really bad, i hope it gets better :/

lol but i really love the outfit tho

i’ve been constipated for 5 days and i am going crazy wtf i just want it out

i seriously need to fix my sleep, i am so tired all the time and its terrible

craving an iced latte rn

i’ve been having so much control over drinking that it reminded me that i can control food too and i am so happy with this

i am so upset and sad and anxious about my relationship with my brother, it’s like he doesn’t really want me in his life and it hurts bad, like i can already feel that i am going to take care of my parents all alone (like i already am doing now…)

ok so i am quitting drinking, i enjoy my occasional wine but that’s it, i just don’t see the fun in it anymore idk