Uwa I need to be tied up.

Alright. I'm calm now. Unfortunately not a good calm. Just a quiet surrender. I can't fight the thoughts anymore tonight and I'll just live with the thought that all my friends hate me.

Not even self harm is working. I'm not cutting or anything. Just pounding my head and legs with a rock. But usually it rattles me enough to stop.

I need somebody to talk to. I'm just screaming into the void and crying now.

I want to ask for help too. But I'm scared of hurting people, and scared of nobody actually caring. Which has been replaying nonstop in my brain for probably 2 weeks

Envy means jealousy. And jealousy is an ugly thing.

This thread reminded me I didn't finish the vodka, but unfortunately there was less than a quarter of a shot left which probably won't do anything but make my headache worse. Drank it anyway

Nobody will see this, which is extremely painful, but at the same time nobody else will be hurt by this. Which is far more important.

I really need support...

I wish my body being in physical agony gave me a break from the constant mental torment, but unfortunately that's not how it works.

Every time I talk I hate myself, and now even not talking is making me hate myself because people notice and I'm sure it makes them uncomfortable.

Few things flashbang me harder than seeing a friend's art or a friends character on e6

Bonus: this is a darker vibe than what I normally draw, so I kept referring back to the wishlist over and over to reassure myself as I was drawing XD

A friend (who is also into these kinks) teased me for being so anxious about it, and I couldn't resist:

(Sometimes the aftercare is for both people)

furry art of a tamaskan character in boxers sleeping in

Soft

Digital furry art. There's a low angle view of the coyote Cantio lounging on a bed wearing only a shirt that says "Sickos" on it, his fat nuts and flaccid dick on display. His tail is wagging, and his ear is flicking a little. Next to him is a little stuffed animal of the maned wolf Maki. #furry #furryart #nsfw

A couple of fellas

Digital furry art. The coyote Cantio is lounging on a coffee table with his legs up and his balls and flaccid penis flopping towards his tummy. He has a t-shirt on over a long-sleeved shirt, and is wearing a collar. He's sticking out his tongue, waving his arms around, and wagging his tail. He is saying "Put me on your coffee tables! I'm a novelty! A curiosity piece!! I'll really get your guests talking!" #furry #furryart #nsfw

Purchase a Cantio today!

#Blowvember 15 - Leash!

Did you know? This spot was actually designed for snouts to rest on! Try it out!
For @cmddog.com

stupid idoit t @peeholelicker unfortunately My nervous system can't tell the difference between responding to a Text and being held at gunpoint

Getting listless again

It'd give me something better to focus on than just holding my rock.

Put my migraine mask on me and give me head scratches to make this migraine go away.

Tie me up and hug me, or tie me up and just do something in the same room as me.

oops got drunk. But at least I'm talking to people (over text)

"Notice me"
Too bad brain you're only allowed to use this reply chain that nobody can see. But the less than 1% chance that someone will be able to find it will convince you that someone will notice you. I can manipulate you too, and because I can barely control you, you can barely control yourself

Stop it you damn piece of shit I thought you were better. Do your damn homework and stop thinking about it.

Digital furry art. Cantio is standing in front of a window wearing a turtleneck tanktop and a golden chain around his neck. He is looking at the viewer and saying "It don't matter. None of this matters." #furry #furryart

it don't matter

The lickerrr

CW: Hypno

Seems Rohad found a new treasure for his hoard

Sketch commission for a client on discord!

Asked telegram chat about some art suggestions to doodle up today and here are the results!

Commission for Kagekitsune

Thanks for your support!

Because of yesterday. Even though getting older is still awful, talking to people and getting attention is good