I still struggle with the idea that the Trans community only cares about those of us that are young or pretty enough.

It’s all ‘support trans people’ until it’s one of us who isn’t stupidly pretty and might not pass. If you don’t support ALL trans people, then gtfo. Leave. It’s all of us. Not just the ones with loads of money who can afford the best or who meet conventional beauty standards. All of us.

Feeling ugly today.

This sounds similar to Zucker's awful work.

I'm happy for those who are getting the help they need.

I'm going to start a fundraiser for gender affirming surgeries and be heartbroken when I don't get anything.

It is targeted at both. Which group has the massive hate campaign against them right now? Which group has less acceptance which makes them more likely to be subjected to conversion therapy? I have met a lot of trans people who were put through conversion therapy.

Yep. I went through that. It sucks. That is not reason enough to stay in the closet.

Thank you. It is very hard to have hope for the future. All some of us can do is keep pushing forward.

How do we not lose hope? How do we find or create hope?

I feel so ugly and physically masculine.

I didn't have any physical traits in my favor for my transition. It is frustrating. Sometimes it is very emotionally painful.

I would wear this as a pin or a button.

Goals.

If my ffs got botched and I couldn't sue and get it fixed. I would probably just kill myself. Just being honest. Living without it though has been it's own sort of hell.

Slightly suicidal about not having ffs.

A lot of trans women aren't even reaching their genetic cup size. 😔

It is sad how quickly people resort to body shaming and appearance shaming instead of actually speaking out against people's harmful actions.

The only time that I felt fully good about myself when looking in the mirror was when I was high on magic mushrooms.

I wish I saw people hyping up more body types for women besides hourglass ,pear and slender. 😔

Thank you so much for responding. You are very appreciated.

I'm trying really hard to internalize this. What helped you reach this point?

I see a therapist through video appointments. The way she spoke to me leads me to believe she thought that I was tall and bulky. I'm not tall. I'm only 5'7.

There will always be low hanging fruit for haters and bigots.
If we were all well behaved then it would shift to not respecting trans people because some of us don't pass or aren't pretty enough. There will always be an excuse.

I struggle with the word " beautiful ". It has lost meaning to me. People will tell me that I'm beautiful or that everyone is beautiful. When I ask them what they mean they switch it to " has value".

It is so messed up how people act when pretty privilege is brought up. I'm conventionally unattractive and have been treated poorly a lot due to it.
People will try to compliment me ,say people were just jerks, but then say pretty privilege isn't real. I can see how I'm treated vs others.

My biggest regret is not transitioning sooner. It can really fucking haunt me.

Performative allies don't help win the war. That is the point. We need people fighting by our side instead of playing cheerleader.

I hope you find good people to surround yourself with and are able to see the beauty that they see in you.

I had a similar experience. It has been so strange and painful to see how others who transitioned only a couple years after have received so much more acceptance and support.
I'm happy for them. I just wish I had a positive experience as well.

The night I was bullied off that server,i sat for hours in the dark debating shooting myself.
I was so psychologically distraught that I had to call out of work the next day.