a kermit the frog is sitting on a ledge with his arms outstretched ALT: a kermit the frog is sitting on a ledge with his arms outstretched

killing myself (soon™) after reading one of the most (from what ive heard) gut wrenching stories every written (elysian realm)

feeling like overdosing on caffeine

(knives got confiscated._.)

its even stranger than most because u can experience this peace for an extended period of time while also processing all the other normal emotions

being at peace when you've come to terms with your death as a suicidal person is one of the strangest feelings i think, but it makes perfect sense when you look at it through the same lens.

i shouldn't be nervous since ive still got an amount of time left but...i am..???? idk im just rambling atp end tangent

ends. and it kinda fits with what ive been doing the past few months ig where ive just been tying loose ends and stuff with irl friends and family members while trying to build up the courage to finally commit into this promise before the year ends. its weird and i cant help but want it to stop??? +

a weird promise ive kept telling myself since i was like a child was that i should kill myself before i turn 13, it came and now i told myself to do it before graduation, then i graduated elementary, which then turned into before i turn 18, im 19 now and atp i just decided to do it before the year +

its a weird feeling to have a certain amount of serenity while tiptoeing between killing myself and trying to live. like im just chilling but at the abck of my mind i know and have promised myself that i dont have long left to live (this year in fact lol)

i really gotta use this acc more its kinda just rotting

sometimes i still forget this acc exists

yearning arc 🤝

im not killing myself (yet) just finished up a draft i found that im documenting cuz this acc goes from venting and game posts to being a writing archive *shrug*

"To write my wrongs there is only one solution left; Death.

I mean, there would be no problem if the cause never existed right?

Everything's in place.

Soon. Thank you.

World, forget me."

-K

from: End Cycle

And why do I say this? Dont be like me. Devoid of hope and reason much that I have grown a filter I cant turn off. Saying heartful words but never internalizing them. A mind that autotranslates kindness to knives I use to gut myself. I am my own flaw; my own demise."

3/3

There's still a lot to see out there. The sunsets that close down and bid farewell to the world in such a vibrant orange, like a hug when departing with friends as you head home for the day. The natural sound of birds and the gushing of the wind as you bike through roads. Keep living.

2/3

"To whoever reads this,

You can do it. Waking up everyday seems impossible due to the constant uphill climb but you lived this far haven't you? Thats worth celebrating. Keep going, as many times as you trip—take a seat, dust off your legs, heal any scratches then get up and keep walking.

1/3

a skeleton is standing on a carpet in a living room . ALT: a skeleton is standing on a carpet in a living room .

man i wanna be happy but i dont understsnd why my brain eont accept that there are things that make me happy. like its not convinced from any reason despite it being a truth

ive pretty much experienced all there is to see in life and i think im ready to just let go now.

my stomache is constantly stuck between puking out if i eat something and devouring food when its hungry into a cycle of puking it out again that im practically just rotting now. and i just want it to end.

honestly if i could be a bit more vulnerable, im kind of giving up on the idea that i should live anymorr past tomorrow. i know i have friends who've told me to keep going but its hard to even motivate myself to get out of bed.

real and true

i think its just cuz im not terminally online idk

i might use this as a sub vent acc idk i kinda made this acc on a whim for backup snd idk ehat to do other than retweet art and occassionally rant/vent + the 1% gameplay posts

life update: my ass got better but now i wanna kms

anyway have 3.1 cas screenshot

end mt suffering this fever aint going away anytime soon and kts nearly feb 14 god please just put me out of my misery

help im dying (im sick currently i hate the flu send help)

ending myself

ohmygod typo....its just 2 frames*

yeee i can finally play zzz now (i have so much to catch up on) and wuwa no longer forces me to look at 2fps per second everytime i move the camera by an inch

got a new phone lfgggggg we are absolutely gaming now