can you feel it go more and more deeply into your hand

i can def listen to it w at least my hand that’s holding it

can physically feel it vibrating there

listening to it w different parts of my body helps

cultivating a pavlovian relationship to my singing bowl where every time i hear it , it tells me ‘wake up you’re alive!’

turns out the modern jazz scene IS where i belong

and there’s a subset of people in it who are just like me

i just didn’t really know how to vibe before that, so didn’t have access to that info

i think i’m gonna get some devil sticks

what culture do you wanna weave into you/yourself into? 🤔

whichever one is around and best for me

i need more cultural conditioning

i am way to insightful to be this unmotivated

vibing w the universe in the bathroom

reintegrating into standard social interactions after a period of pedastilzing mindful relating

also gonna take ‘holding okayness on the outside’ as a key for later

distinguishing ‘any outcome is equally good’ from ‘what is, is’

sheeesh 🔥

there’s definitely been some dissonance in my conflation of those things

ohhhh yeah,

every scale has its own modes

just wait till u get to harmonic and melodic minor modes

reminder to self: let the exhale be the exhale when it is

life keeps happening in bursts for me

i swear there’s some sort of pulse or inhale/exhale pattern happening

(posted after she already left and we became friends :)

FUCK

OH FUCK THERES A CUTE GIRL IN MY APARTMENT

lol hey friend :)

think i just invented a new genre

me: true happiness comes irrespective of external conditions

also me: the piano is clipping on this track I thought was done, i can’t be OK

this reminded me to do my warm ups 🎹🙏

i’d love to talk to u ab this stuff on a call!

the year is 2054. people are saying shit like ‘check your insecure attachment’

sometimes i think im being all present and mindful and stuff but im actually just withdrawn

Wowww thank you for making this man!! I’d only caught some of these references for the road — a lot of magic to dive into here ❤️🙏

seeing video of me playing is great for noticing the ways in which i’m more and less embodied

p sure my bodymind doesn’t wanna sleep if i haven’t practiced 🎹