Took an extra 17/18 years, but I guess I'm feeling pretty broken in and ready to live my best office space life until I die.
Headed into month 3 of unemployment, seriously seeing no way out of this funk. lmfao
I guess I'm obviously just feeling some type of way this morning.
I'll be alright.

I'll be completely honest w/you babes...I'm still very down and out about my old job, truly feel like I need to just give up horticulture all together and get a made up office job. 🤡
North America isn't ready to be food sovereign or secure...I feel I'm too burnt out to be radical anymore.

Picture of me in a church at intermission. The church is beautiful with blue ceiling, gold accents, tile flooring. I am wearing a brown dress, black heels, and a white cover up, my hair is up in a messy claw clip bun.

I went to a choir concert by myself, and then took myself to dinner afterwards.
Speaking of jobless behavior. 😚🤣
Definitely trying my best to be "your unemployed friend on a random Wednesday." Yknow? 🤭💀

Me: jobless, limited EI income, only Uncle and his PT job to fall back on currently.
Also me: scrounging up all the change in my car to give to some guy who had the courage to ask me for any spare change in the grocery store parking lot.

Currently: on a date with myself.

There was something...someone (not here, probably a podcast) recommended to me...and all I remember is its on Tubi...but cannot remember anything more. lmfao
Was it a movie? Show? Documentary?

Okay my thoughts:
1. It's AAVE, mostly southern, but obviously making its way everywhere.
2. I think they also do it, both as a way to fit in, but also as a way of censoring themselves and not having their comments flagged online.
Like how they also say "gRape"
Now your take on "Type shit"? 👀🤣

Speaking of, he just sent me a snap last night FROM TOUR lol still rocking it that dude.

Hug hug, kiss kiss, hug, hug, BIG KISS, little hug, kiss, kiss, little kiss.

I miss my best friend Dillie. ❤️
We are each other's not boyfriend, not girlfriend. lol

QUIT TELLING ME IM FORBIDDEN.
FIX IT.

We met.
No skin off my teeth.
She's a nice lady.
Hopefully her father is better than mine.
Same thing I wish for all my siblings.
But like...idky what you're wanting or expecting from me personally...should I be wanting a relationship? We're grown adults, best I can offer is friends?
IDK. LMK.

Wow we're really slow and glitchy this morning huh? Will this even post? 🤷🏾‍♀️

I will feel satisfied because I can now just know my parents by their shitty loveless marriage again.
And not have to have this huge secret about my dad from my whole family.
That will satisfy me and make me feel light as a feather.

If anything, I am kinda expecting to be checking my father back into the mental hospital and like probably explaining why to the rest of my family. 🤷🏾‍♀️

I think...I'm going because I'm just curious as to what and why she would be reaching out to him now. Curious as to what he will say and how he will be.
Will I get any form of satisfaction from this? I guess thats TBD but babes, I ain't holding my breath on it...

My secret sister reached out to my dad for whatever reason (even though she told me she didn't want to meet him, she had a dad already, just wanted health information cause she has kids.)
Now I'm dragged into this cause she brought me up.
We're all meeting tomorrow.

Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back.

Selfie of myself standing in front of my wandering dude vertical tower, thriving taking up about 3 tower spaces.

Selfie with my old one I grew at my old job for our show farm. lol

I'm trying to be more confident in myself and all the knowledge I possess and how I can relate it and translate it into anything but the medical field...yknow. LOL
Any job not in the medical field is truly open for me to try out I think.
I could go anywhere. lol
I'm tenacious, that's everything.

There's a lot of...Education/Science coordinator positions available in my area...it all really seems like taking big brain things and making them basic lay terms...and like interacting with the public.
Do I throw my hat in the ring? I feel like I could do those things.

I got one whole bag of garbage out of the closet, and a bunch of stuff to move to other places, and more space for more things! lol

Started cleaning up the guest bedroom, going through the closet that I have just been throwing shit in the last few years. lol
Got rid of some stuff, got stuff to move to other places.
Uncle woke up and distracted me with food and anime.
Trying to stay motivated though.

Am I...too grown and healed for the 90 day franchise now?
Every single one of these iterations has me wanting to willingly peel the skin from all over my body.
The stories are just...ughlk.

Uncles French rash creme worked on the first go...yknow I hate when he's right. 🫠🤣
Still going to continue applying it for a few more days to be extra sure and careful. 💃🏾✨️

omg I forgot about whats her face and Daniel!
WHAT DO YOU MEAN I STILL HAVE ONE MORE EPISODE.
MATTHEW SHARP, I'M BEGGING. END IT. END ME.
IS THIS THE ONE ROSS IS HOSTING? I JUST WANNA SEE ROSS-UHHH!!!

YAAAAAAASSSSS TRISHA!!!!
WALK AWAY FROM THAT OLD AINT SHIT MAN!!!

Elise is in Australia, during their winter time...its cold in winter time...and like when all you wear is ACE bandage for clothing, yeah, its gonna feel freezing. lmfao

This 45 year old fuck up...lmfao
"Maybe I'm only good for disappointing people."
"Wouldn't blame you if you walked away right now."
BOO. FUCKING. WHOO.
Yall are opposite spectrums of emotional and its just tew much.
Yall aint tired in your big ages.
Fuck.