Yeah I’m cooked. Just fucking end me

Taking a chance on for a new role. I’m glad I still have a j*b atm but I may not be in a few months. Would be nice to stay on in the same area, but they don’t even want to keep me on it seems lmao. AND I got rejected from another one earlier this week before the *nterv*ew. Just feeling awful.

Hmm well no official confirmation yet, but it seems like it’s a fail. Really sucks if so, the awful feeling of rejection and all that. Really wanted this one to work out, def felt like a great fit. Not sure if it’s just the lack of experience on my part, I suck at talking, or I’m not worth…

That said, as nervous and anxious as I was and how much I still stumbled on my words, I think that went well. Hopefully I get this 🤞 (otherwise I may be out of a j*b by the end of summer lmao)

I’ll never get used to the pressure and anxiety I feel during j*b interviews

Haven’t posted here in a bit so I’ll come and express the defeat of looking for a book for your own personal interest, the system says it’s available and then you look and it actually is not on the shelf…the absolute struggle of working in a library

it’s funny some ppl at work (specifically in the college) still assume i’m a student. i’ll take that as a compliment in regards to my looks i suppose

if i’m feeling it after work, perhaps i will go out to the dm show

day 3 of being rejected for a j*b i was confident i’d get and i still feel a bit down about it

a somewhat major event occurred in my life and i can’t help but feel like a total failure now hahahah

wired in. fighting games are so fun

desperately need a wired connection already so i can play fighting games (pls i really want to play)

i literally charged these things monday and they’re already below 10%…i miss the wired days

nothing worse than getting to work and finding out my airpods are only gonna last the first 4 hours of the day…

i hate the shuttle

june

at work, sitting in on an interview presentation while drinking a cafe mocha and all i’m thinking about is playing more raidou (it’s sm fun)

Raidou looks so cool. i can’t wait to play it tomorrow 🥹

may !

weekend, one more day of work, then it’s off to the UK! a proper first vacation since i’ve started working…looking forward to it :))

like Eternal was firing on all cylinders from beginning to end and TDA started a bit slower? but the whole gameplay loop is different in TDA and i liked it quite a bit. the demon designs, the graphics, dragon/mech piloting. music was whatever in this one but thats really my only actual gripe

finished DOOM: TDA and it was sooo good. idk i think it might be my favorite of the newer games surpassing Eternal by a bit

unika looks and feels really cool and cvs2 is fun and got me almost itching to pick up sf6 again to play bison..not to mention the granblue itch every time it comes to mind 😵‍💫 i think i should def play fighting games more

two more days until i can play Doom…

i wish i was playing oblivion rn 🥲

doom and nightreign release this month 😵‍💫😵‍💫 i’m still addicted to oblivion though

april (chat pile rules 😵‍💫)

one of my absolute fave games ever. the memories of always coming home from school and hopping on the 360 and loading up oblivion. the countless hours i put into it then is unfathomable. this remaster feels and looks amazing. what a wonderful surprise this is. life ain't so bad.

the oblivion remaster is soooo good everyone

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