I miss having regular access to a really really good fancy teahouse.

Burnt myself out with a *lot* of socials on Saturday and still feeling it. Sometimes i am forcibly reminded I don't have infinite social energy!

Okay yeah i do need to use my strap like way more often.

"You know I'd let you do anything to me, right?"
"Yes, I know. _That's the problem._"

I desperately need a "I got pregnant on the northernlion super cruise" t-shirt to go with my breeding kink.

Nothing, in all my years of psychological fuckery in scenes, has come close to the impact of having slept 5 distinct times in 36 hours in terms of disorientation.

What day is it? Who am I? What's happening? :P

I had some quality horny posting ideas earlier while bsky was down, and now I've completely forgotten it all. Y'all are missing out.

It's not good enough for me to be a *good* possession. I need to be the *best* possession.

I need to learn how you take your coffee. How much salt you like in your meals. What your flavor palate is. If you prefer bourbon or rye. If you like the sheets flat or folded. What your workout routine is.

Handing my submissive to other Dommes with the hope they'll fuck her but not in a cuck way, but with the same energy as giving someone my book to read.

"Look at this! I spent so much time on it. Blood, sweat, and tears were involved. I made it myself! Enjoy!"

Born to be waited on by a gaggle of servants, forced to wake up at 4am for work

Apparently, one can tell that I'm needy because it's when i go from wanting to provide service with my mouth to begging to have my cunt used.

Do with this information what you will :P

Oh fuck though, what if i was born to be "the other woman"?

I'm so lucky that my Miss is a tits girl.

Google tells me this is an I cup, for my US fans.

Accidentally been wearing ridiculously small bras for years. Finally got a proper refitting.

Anyway, when I'm posting about all my horny shit, remember it's coming from a girl with 38G (UK) tits :P

I have been very depressed and dissociative and in pain the last week or two, but what if someone just used my mouth about it instead?

...but I think it's a cornerstone of conversational hypnosis (and consistent brainwashing) to be able to draw on continual observation of a subject (partner) in this way, to be able to prompt and direct them with surety of what direction their response - internal and external - will take them.

...ideas, phrases, jokes, touches that stood out; things you remember because you know they'll remember them, things you can approach obliquely or deniably because you'll be able to recognise through observation when they cross your partner's mind. I've removed some examples to fit this on bsky...

Taken from a conversation elsewhere today:
I often use the metaphor of 'strings' when I'm thinking about hypnosis (and brainwashing): if you're consistently practicing mindful observation, you will notice particular associations, anchors, reactions from someone that you want to 'save for later'...

The depression/fatigue pile of crockery gets put in the kitchen because I'm back to being a powerful (but tired) bitch.

Severe fibro pain really does make me hyper emotionally fragile, very pricky to touch, and simultaneously socially avoidant and desperate for affection and validation.

We've invented a doll *so* easy to abuse...

My second bed in 14 months....... why do they always leave me :(

Personally, I think being so manipulable by a handful of women is a very attractive trait.

Fatigue has been bad today, too. This of course has made me very very horny about how weak and fragile I am. I am ridiculous.

I love being controlled <3 D/s really is magic.

P-zombieificafion

There's something really interesting about this form of extreme fatigue, dizziness, and brainfog I'm in rn where I can just about type or speak a sentence, but I *can't* think a full coherent thought internally.

Its so wild that after two years in a very intense brainwashing d/s dynamic, i feel more myself than i ever have.

Beatings so good and also my body is buzzing and I'm sooooo tired and dollydolldoll and loopy and good and

Wherever i go, women i want to fuck with are playing Slay the Spire 2.