Wow we had a great coverage here in Australia. Maybe different networks had different options to choose

Watching youtube videos on cortisol. Such an eye opener.

breathe work can make you cry. A release. First time I’ve done it & I cried. I’ve got so much stuff to release. I think I’m
Finding the key now and acknowledge my cortisol. I booked into the doctor on Thursday. I’m going to get a mental health plan and ask to test the cortisol. I think this is key

Lower Cortisol Levels Naturally | 4-8 Breathing Exercise YouTube video by Pocket Breath Coach - Luke Horton

I’ve been learning so much about cortisol. Now I understand my abdominal fat and why. My stress. My life. Childhood. Abuse. Marriage. Mother in law. Grief. Loss. Disappointment in people. This is all making sense. I understand now

This is a good breathe work

youtu.be/VEmoY1b1C-o?...

Ok day 2 of my run. I’m working on c25k but I’m repeating the days as I know when I get
To week 5 it’s a big jump. So doing something everyday will help. Still keeping in mind I have to do weights. Learnt a lot yesterday about insulin resistance. I can do this. I’ve done it before. I weigh 68

I feel a lot better now. I guess with venting. Getting my thoughts down. I think I always think the worse as I never know which husband I will get. I have to start to manifest all conversations filled with peace and love. It is nearing the end of the week. Ate so much sugar tonight and it is stres

I’m at shops now to bank $400. This money is expanding so easily. My bank account is growing without any effort. It just keeps multiplying.

I will fast mon tue wed next week.

I also fall asleep after dinner. A sugar crash. Cause he is so difficult. I will just pretend after eating that I will go to toilet. Instead will do 10 min exercise video to help

The control. Is so wild now that I have my eyes open. It started small many years ago when dating. So small. So slight and now I can really see the signs. So let me
Share my weight 69kilos. Let’s see where my venting takes me.

I was sick once and slept in the spare room
And felt myself wake up relaxed. He is my cortisol. So I’m beginning to plan my exit. Something that I know will be inevitable but something I know I need to be prepared for. You may ask why leave now - well that is another story also. One I will share

Yes
I have a stomach. I would say I’m around 8 kilos overweight. All cortisol. I wake up and I’m
Stressed. I feel it. I just started HRT
Something that I was against with the risk of breast cancer but seeing my CRP numbers climb I thought I would try it out. I’m
Exhausted keeping a peaceful home

Whilst drunk and yes he is a drunk. He is a binge drinker that is an embarrassment. He said that he will get another woman to have sex with. Like who says that. Honestly what type of person feels that it is acceptable to treat their partner that way. So today I’m venting

I have made excuses for bad behaviour and I must add not just with my husband but with many friends and family
Members cause I don’t like to stand up. My husband in calling me fat has made me
Fully aware that that dream will become a reality. Especially when he said

Need it. That I did. I had to pay half for his funeral. That’s another story but I had that dream that was so real. So I’m beginning to feather my nest so to speak
To be prepared financially. I didn’t realise it until a few months back that I have been controlled and coerced my entire marriage life

My husband called me fat. I can’t look at him the same way. The way he drinks. I had a dream a few months back that he will have an affair at 59. It was real and I’ve had dreams before that has come true. Before my dad died I had to save every cent I could without my husband knowing as I knew I

I love these machines 😂😂. Cruise ship gambling

Cruise ship gambling not in the positive but it paid for the trip that was free

On a cruise and enjoying it so much. Two more to come - back into fitness. Today walked 10,000 steps after putting car into service. I’ve got to really get focused on my health & body image

A rare green one

Fantastic coffee morning

So lucky to get this and then a bigger one a few presses later #gambling #casino

Finding my feet gambling - nothing better than winning on this scale

Bankstown sports club

Brilliant fun

Had a great time today

Taking metformin day 1 weight 68.6

Damn this major is elusive. Won the one yesterday. I guess we can’t be lucky twice. Maybe next time

Having fun at the casino.

More casino shenanigans SPIN A WINNA

Yes going to the casino is fun. A loss of what I budgeted for $300 but spent all day and got a huge $150 lunch and $100 dinner
So
I guess
It ain’t that bad