this doesn't totally override the desire to spend 2 hours working on my cross stitch tho like that would truly be me locking in fr 😂

i don't like working on my serious projects, but sometimes you just come across the perfect reference and it makes your day a little, you know?

we're so back apparently lol

so this was not the most difficult thing in the world to face but i was on a deadline and my stomach hurt so much for an hour so i couldn't really focus and had to use up precious hours to sleep it off 😥 i finished the thing and it stopped hurting when i woke up but still

tummy achy

hair washed, skin moisturized ☺️

🤗

this is lowkey so stressful i just want to know if you got the thread specifications i do not care for the auto responses that don't tell me anything i need to know fjskd

oh well. i guess i'll know when i get the package 🥲

tmw when you feel normal, and yet there's this inexplicably heavy weight on your chest that's keeping you in bed for hours despite your rational mind urging you up and out. because you feel 'normal'

kind of ironic that i shy away from embroidery because it's "too difficult" when i just spent 5+ hours color-correcting a cross stitch pattern to get the most accurate look for the least amount of colors 😅

making decisions is harder today :/

you can't rush rest but also! i want to blab about stuff again!! and feel like i can actually say things!!! because now, none of the words feel right to me :(

unfortunately for my work, i'd rather read manga. but unfortunately for my manga, i'd feel to guilty to just abandon work.

ergo: nothing happens 🙃

how about i not overthink it? 🤔

hair care stuff is so confusing fr 😅 i get that it's partly because there isn't enough good scientific evidence and that most of what's going around right now is anecdotal. fhjksdh i should prolly go talk to a derm sometime if it really bothers me

it is done 😭 i'm sort of free 😭

mangadex :(

nervous 🫠 so nervous 🫠 lowkey afraid 🫠 highkey feeling like i want to shrink inside my skin or smth idk fkskfksk

✅️ read-along mechanics, tho i'm still formatting the post 😂

finished with the tumblr asks! next up on hobbies i want to work on today is finalizing the read-along mechanics and getting at least an hour's work on my maomao cross stitch after work ^^

unsurprisingly, now that i'm calmer, i have a much better handle on my shit

or should it be the quences to my conses...?

idkkk it's just so weird. i think so horribly of myself abilities-wise and yet people still want to work with me? and it lowkey just feels like it's only a matter of time before they realize what a horrible mistake they're making? idk idk

ah yes the conses to my quences 🙃

元の色のが綺麗なんだよな…変にいじらないほうがいいのかも知れない自戒

i have two!

archiveofourown.org/works/3773851

archiveofourown.org/works/4034659

i'd like to rec more but i forgot to bookmark them 😅

it really is such a different experience when watching shows on the tv vs the phone

it would be super cute if (when? :>) hagi and kohaku get together, kohaku would be unfazed by people calling her cute, but now it's because she's so used to hearing hagi say it that she's accepted it <3

#HowIAttendedAnAllGuysMixer #合コンに行ったら女がいなかった話

i lost so much time. to the haze? yeah, the haze

hmm. it really is a struggle to get my thoughts in order :/