Bye, forget it. The dude tried to extort me a moment after that But I forgot about it, and the guy seemed to have forgotten too because he didn't say anything to me. Just a few days passed, and I had an accident, and he joked that my organs were going to spill out of the wound

I've become hypersexualized with adults and ofc nobody pays attention to me so I stopped, Nobody loves me, It can't be that the person who has hurt my life the most has shown me more respect, I can't believe that dude treated me any differently, better than other people who swear they love me

"Why are you obsessed with thatt!? Your whole life revolves around that"
They don't know me and they never will, they just make me feel like I'm trying to play the victim, Is this a joke? It literally ruined my entire life, it ruined my whole concept of sex too. I can't see anything normally

In the end, I'm almost always home alone, I always am, and I never said anything about it, Even when I was abused and had to see that Damn person every single day, I was alone. At no point did they question why I was behaving strangely,,

What am I supposed to do? I don't even know how to speak in public because I feel terribly embarrassed about it,m Nobody cares about me and nobody ever will. I'm sure my mom will stop fighting with someone and my dad will feel at peace not having to give me a miserable amount of money

"But you're not a burden." But then they blame me, saying they can't have any peace because of me, and then they beat me up for causing trouble

Sometimes I feel like my mom wants to kill me. I definitely know that my dad doesn't love me or my siblings because he prefers to support other people And I have money problems, many things have happened to me that I've had to keep quiet about so as not to be a burden to them

If I only had problems with loneliness it would be great, it's awful when you also have problems at home, with your parents, especially with money, Mental health problems and problems in your life, atp kms

I'm so tired omg, I hope that one day I'll find someone I can talk to every day, all the time, For now, I will spend my days

"Get a hobby" and I do, but the emptiness is still there What are you supposed to do when you go days or weeks without talking to a real human being And that almost all your social interactions are with people online (even if they are almost nonexistent)

It's been a while since I hurt myself, but it would be great to do it again. Well, no, but I can't find a day when I can finally break free from this 💩💩💩💩 I can be honest and say that I'm tired of waking up

Sooooo tireeeddd

I'm so tired, twin

Wtv. Someone put me to sleep already

I never think I'll find someone who loves me. Maybe I'm disgusting. I've never really felt someone's love in that way, only virtual ""love"" but not even that,
I will be left alone and poor

But they get upset when I tell them why they didn't just abort me or abandon me in the street when they could have
Whatever it is, I hope my suicide makes them reflect

She's been wanting to take me to a psychologist for a few months now, but I don't think it's necessary anymore, like, I'm already ruined
I don't even feel like it helps ME

Since I was 5 years old, I already felt that what was happening to me wasn't important So I never said anything to them, I didn't understand that it was going to be so bad
The beatings and insults I endured almost every morning made me believe that sxual abuse wasn't so bad

Neither of them probably loves me, neither my mom nor my dad, Or I don't know, both of them have made me feel like the worst failure they ever had, I'm not even asking him for anything. Not even money.
Even if I was abused by his employee When he left me alone
I never told them

I don't understand why she just started saying things like that to me, I closed my bedroom door and something fell behind it, so I picked it up. She opened the door slamming it open, so if I hadn't done it quickly I probably would have hit my head Against the wall and the door
I cried

My mom yelled at me and insulted me for a long time, saying horrible things. I cried a little so I decided to do something, and I guess I'm better now

I feel so bad

Hola

Solo 18 días para tener un declive mental

Hello

I feel terrible

I would like to say that I don't love you, I would like to tell you everything

Maybe I'm just not those other people you loved, I'll never know that tender side of you, I never forced you to be that, Always try to accept your cold and rude messages

I would like to tell you all this, but you will probably attack me, possibly make me feel bad even for breathing