I'm on the first stages of what seems a cold, but I felt so bad already I reorganized my entire responsibilities to avoid extra thinking for the upcoming days. One curse. One blessing.

I forgot the tea but I had cheese cubes. Ima daijoubing

I had a bad day and I am actually very sad. Tomorrow I'll have tea that I think I've only tried once before, so I can change life for one day (⁠ ⁠T⁠_⁠T⁠)⁠＼⁠(⁠^⁠-⁠^⁠ ⁠)

The feeling of getting a positive reaction after putting effort in drawing. Beautiful gem

I showed up to two (2) important things (for me) and I had to ask for more time for a third, that it turned out to have a deadline way later than I thought. Otsu-self 😴

Undo?

Tired enough to forget to undone my hair, and my cup of tea ヘ⁠（⁠。⁠□⁠°⁠）⁠ヘ *does backflip onto bed*

Haha bury the face in salt 🧂(⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

Thank you, March m(_ _)m

Unreachable peace

I always feel I never do enough, never draw enough. However, when I check summaries I see that a drew a lot, that I'd like to draw so much again.

I'm starting to believe I spend most of my days with closed eyes

Final thoughts

I like the final look and I am emotionally attached to this drawing now, and I wish for future sphenice to be able to find this in the future when needed. Clearing all those notes by the end was an amazing feeling ★★★★★ would recommend (⁠ ⁠ˊ⁠ᵕ⁠ˋ⁠ ⁠)b

3. I was having my tragic episode about colors at the beginning because I also followed something I am not used to. Because I wanted, but still →(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)

4. Texture weak points at it again (I'll get my revenge another day).

Not so good things:

1. My usual process is so different from this, I had to stop and plan a lot. Also to step back after decisions that weren't working (and I didn't want to lose my hair because of it)

2. I put so much effort in the lineart and I still feel is too weak, compared with the render

3. Crawling the walls and turning my head in a full circle was so worth to keep wanting to come back to the drawing.

4. The hair is so pretty. 0 humble. All the pride ╰⁠(⁠*⁠´⁠︶⁠`⁠*⁠)⁠╯

Good things:

1. Having one (1) layer with all the corrections I wanted after every drawing session gave me so much ground to not worry too much about forgetting something.

2. The second sketch with almost everything drawn gave me hope and also, I used to check later the ~vibes~ of the drawing

I just wanted a reason to post art again. THEN, I decided to go slow instead of happily chain myself to the canvas for a creativity burst.
And I decided: hmmm, I am going to plan the general process of it steps before hand.
And then I was suffering every time I wanted to keep drawing n couldn't

I spent a lot of time in this drawing so I am saving the wips and my thoughts about the process 🧵

The final version btw: x.com/i/status/203...
OC belongs to @/yuu_akari (on twt)

TLDR : Uuhhh... Eeeh.... AAAAH... Oh?! OOOOOH!

I wanted to continue drawing but I had one more mission before free time. A mission that took me four (4) hours (⁠ ⁠ꈨຶ⁠ ⁠˙̫̮⁠ ⁠ꈨຶ⁠ ⁠)

I like the days in which I draw when I was supposed to and then I draw a little more, 'cause I want to keep working on making it look good. A peaceful chapter ♪⁠～⁠(⁠´⁠ε⁠｀⁠ ⁠)

Emotional attachment LVL: I took a screenshot of the personas I have in game so I can write them down later to surprise future-sphenice. I genius (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

I need more of my (not officially) adopted child in my life. Maybe.

In another life I used this drawing to say hi because in all honesty, it brings me joy.

I was checking old posts and the fact that 2 of these wips are complete drawings now made me tear up a little. The good ending (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠)

Looking at my wips lately and I shifted the 'I'm going somwehere' to 'I will never arrive' mentality in like 5 seconds because of a sad episode. No bueno. Mucho (auto)nanai (⁠ ⁠T⁠_⁠T⁠)⁠＼⁠(⁠^⁠-⁠^⁠ ⁠)

The responsibility of showing up with the guilt of thinking I am not doing good enough are at war again. One side says what does not exist, can't have a chance to be beautiful. The other says, it wouldn't need a chance if we could just do things right. I've been down this road before🎶 (⁠╯⁠︵⁠╰⁠,⁠)

Also, there's a monthly challenge I want to try, but I am not so sure I will be able to complete it on time (⁠๑⁠•⁠﹏⁠•⁠)
................ Well, maybe if I stop thinking I can't do anything I want to, it could be +1% possible and move away from 0 (⁠°⁠_⁠o⁠)💡