when getting snake leads to a renewed sense of life

that and i know i have to wait to see if granblue just runs well enough on the steam deck when its released (it likely will)

having to check what gachas work on my steam deck only to realize that for wuwa to run a bit more decently ultra performance settings at its lowest have to be used for it

I GOT THE EMULATOR TO WORK FINALLY

steam deck has its ssd replaced and its now 1TB and i can relax knowing now is the next hurdle: what can i run

everything was honestly fine until That happened and now its the zombie feeling

when your slight fear of fire goes into "if incense is lit i am Not gonna have a good day at all" and

now my day is ruined from nearly panicking from my anxiety and im likely not to do much other than attempting to fix my nerves

this year has kinda been hell too but adjacent to everything going on already in the "alma starring as god's blunder" saga so legit if i cant find any work within the state or remotely i gotta go with what i know best

going into the next year i NEED to lock in and do what i need to do to get better art-wise, if not figuring out how to stream

the christmas haul

I FUCKIGNG GOT A STEAM DECK!!!!

atp the amount of socks ive been getting just to combat me itching is about to turn into a sock review of which ones dont flare up my eczema to the point where it leads to the itchiness

truly is a moment where my mom, aunt, and grandma have to band together to get my legs to heal up from all the scabs and open wounds because i have been so fucking stressed out this year

granblue fes truly will be my feast

about to break my hand from the grip at seeing lobelia i feel Ill

that roller brush for the hallway though was peepeepoopoo

helped paint the hallway and im in pain again

my legs hurt after being forced to pretzel to fit the other stuff in the front

Home after doing the stuff for today

about to head out since cloudy

ue ue ue

mostly the only way im getting something out of it is lunch ofc but for the most part im just

hoping it not only isnt raining tomorrow but my mood isnt just in shit

gotta go to storage tomorrow w my aunt to sort out the actual container space + taking out da christmas decorations

i really didnt plan on getting out the house unless it was designated holiday/birthday moments but its another thing my dad said he owes me for after the car moment

my dad telling me that a no mic art streaming option is possible and its true since really its second to last but i gotta figure out if i can just do landscapes

after like 6PM it becomes the "do not trust your negative thoughts" period until the morning on a good day and if its a bad day its basically the whole entire day

whew i feel like shit today cause the build up of nearly having a full anxiety spike to it raining then a power outage from the usual factor to "wow i should not trust what is going on in my thoughts" cycle returned

like thank god it only goes up to level 4 for red mage and blue mage, i would go berserk

unfortunately i gotta do this tedious shit for as long as i can go because of mastering Every Single Job up until i find the black chocobo properly

blue mage on bartz is mastered though so thats good enough for me

facing skull eaters in the jachol cave cause i hate myself enough for the tedious job skill farming in order to teach myself proper patience