They said "baby gotta fake it till you make it" and I did.

Omg we started watching Grey's again and I'm so happy about it. My fav.

1 year difference.🤷‍♀️

Dear Maria, count me in.

Meow

haven't been here for a while sheesh

cute or????

They actually don't like to use the levels, she only gave me it because I asked. Autism is autism regardless and "levels" can change with age,intervention,therapies etc. sending you love.🥺❤️

It's official, Eevie got diagnosed with autism (Level 2) today.

Children and when that may not happen for them, it can really throw you for a loop.. They are here. They are alive. They love YOU more than anything. Always be grateful.🥺❤️

Because she is ALIVE.❤️ I would do anything to have Malakai here.. autistic, down syndrome, delays, it wouldn't have mattered. So every day I remind myself to be grateful because she is here, breathing, playing, smiling. She is HERE.❤️

Obviously we all envision that certain "normal" life for our

I'm fine and will accept if my youngest is forever nonverbal and has delays and struggles. I will be by her side every step of the way holding her hand + giving her all of the big bear hugs and reassurance that she's perfect just as she is, that she needs. I will accept whatever is thrown our way

Eevie doesn't acknowledge that I'm speaking to her 90% of the time. I'm still gonna keep yapping to her though.🤷‍♀️

A turned the light on + checked the closet before he went to work for me🤣. It is in fact a dollhouse and a laundry basket making that shape. Not an evil shadow person that's going to take me out tonight while he's gone. It's all good over here.

Oh?

I'm excited for Christmas. Sad that Malakai can't be here to celebrate with us but thankful for the time I did have with him. I know he'd want me to try and be happy for myself and for his siblings.❤️ Love you, little buddy.❤️

This one's kinda cute

NO WAY SHE MANAGED THIS WHEN I LEFT HER FOR 35 SECONDS

"Fuck them shoes*

Once they're on she's fine. The process? Pls no

What it's like to put my suspected autistic, global developmentally delayed 21 month olds shoes on:

*ANGRY FLAPS*
*Trying to grab the shoelaces*
*Kicking legs*
*Angry MMMMMMMMMMs*
*Trying to roll over*
*Won't put feet flat enough to get shoe on*
*Unties 1st shoe while tying 2nd*

For real a workout

Tried to take a cute photo but I can't stop laughing at her legs🤣

❤️🎄

We stayed up way too late listening to music and decorating the tree with our oldest😴. Goodnight❤️

All I did was put my Bluesky app in the spot on my screen where my twitter app used to be so my muscle memory brings me here and not there 😌

I’m just built different 😎.
Like incorrectly 😵‍💫.
Idk 😐.

I gotta stop pushing people away.