Hei 🙌🏻

Sticker of a pink Porsche Cup with white flower accents and glitter as silhouette around the car. A black FlyRaceDream lettering on the side

I have new sticker, adding to the others I already have and they are so pretty 🤍

Me too and my sick body...

See living people the life I wanna live but instead I have a broken body and mind that doesn't allow most of that... I'm just sad and sometimes I don't even feel anything anymore.

Get it guys 😁 The demo was fun!

Yeah, right? 😁

One of the two games in this list I gonna play in May definitely 🥳

Haha yeah, back in 2005 I still had dreams and wasn't as sick as today ^^

So that's why I would want to jump further back if I had the chance 😊

What about like 2005?

Any racing driver who wanna date me? Honestly I need some hugs but also wanna be on a racetrack (with hugs), so win win 🥺😅

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Next streams - updated

No stream today!

Thu, 6:30pm CEST / iRacing / PCup at Red Bull Ring

Fri, 7pm CEST / Gaming / Among the Sleep

Sat, 7pm CEST / iRacing / 4h NEC / @fmholland.bsky.social

Sun, 8pm CEST / iRacing / Chaos Rallycross / Toyota GR86 / Winton RX

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Decided to stay home today and work later from here. Third day with headache and after my body decided to crumble in bed after work and just slept yesterday I don't wanna risk it. I'm on a point where I finally care less about work than my health. Still not enough tho!

Well I'm good in making anything sound less bad, so that's why everyone thinks I'm fine and I can't have anything (just fighting for my life each day but hey) ^^

Like in the series (I never watched btw)? But yeah I know. But not today anymore, I'm super tired and having headache and no energy for anything anymore.

I know, thx 🤍

I buried so much in me that I'm afraid to even start that because when I start I don't know if I can stop and especially continue with life when everything breaks through. I wouldn't even know how start tho.

I do know I need to work on that but... I'm super afraid I can't or break totally.

Writing with someone and just noticing how much ballast and trauma I have is... Unsettling.

Second day back in the office after four weeks of sick leave and I just wanna quit...

🥰❤️

Correction: Sunday is obviously Chaos Rallycross with the Toyota GR86 at Winton RX Track!

Nuuuun, die Laune hier ist schon mal allerliebsten, dabei ist der Chef noch gar nicht da 😶

Actually need to stop procrastinating sleep as I'm very tired and Monday comes either way 💔

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Next streams

Mon, 7pm / Special Event / 4 Years Affiliate Anniversary / Richard Burns Rally (PS2)

Wed, 7pm / iRacing / Nords 24h Practice Wet

Thu, 6:30pm / iRacing / PCup at Red Bull Ring

Fri, 7pm / Among the Sleep

Sat, 7pm / iRacing / 4h NEC / Tom

Sun, 4pm / Narin: The Orange Room

*all CEST

FlyRaceDream_ - Twitch Motorsport Journalist, Twitch Streamer, Sim Racer, Cat Mom, Chronical Illness Survivor and Mental Health Fighter!

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Disgusting behavior of some media title their announcements and articles with "driver dead in Max Verstappen race". A driver died, fucking hell. Stop framing it around another driver who had NOTHING to do with that and was just in the same race!

RIP Juha Miettinen, race on <3

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Horror Friday - Narin: The Orange Room

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Learned about PMDD today and I might (very sure) have that...

Collected another one. I'm big in the Dutch racing community 😂

May is mean!

7th Alchemist: Journey of the Soul / @onskull.bsky.social

12th Directive 8020

14th Outbound

19th Forza Horizon 6

22nd Lego Batman: Legacy of the Dark Knight

Someone send money? Forza is definitely too expensice for me at the moment...

Ich reise Freitag und Sonntag, kann das alles an einem Tag meinem Körper nicht antun 😅

Started P2 in my second PCup race at Long Beach for the day, got collected at the start as another driver couldn't drive a straight line. 26 minutes of repairs (20min required). After P8 in the race before that hurt. Race 3 was happening but I was not really there anymore. I'm sad...