But due to the current situation its not that easy to draw something as I did before. My back would kill me very fast.
Yes, I >could< draw, but not something bigger for my standards. So art-stuff will be on hold for the most part at the moment.

But I hope it'll get better with some time any someday my own 4 walls and my furnitures that are still up in the north.

Luckily I'm not alone. Else I would probably just die on the spot out of loneliness.

So yeah... lets see where the next weeks / months will take me, huh?

There are still hurdles to take that are out of my reach, but there's a chance that a huge amount of those hurdles will be gone very soon. At least I hope so.

I still feel kinda unsure about all. I really really miss my family, especially my birds and my mothers dogs.

Currently still """homeless""", I'm looking for a affordable place to stay in Rosenheim - not that easy so far.

But I started working again; this time at a way better office. So the foundation for a living space is set, I'd say. I'm getting paid way better and don't have to do >everything< anymore.

After a good month, I think it's time to give a small life-update again.

At the end of march the time had come to say goodbye to my family up in the north of germany to move - with tears and a heavy heart - into the almost southest point of germany, where I'm now staying with friends.

Petting from Zeraora!

A green stego kaiju roars into a lightning storm, the sky is blazing red and orange while the torrential rain bounces off their scales. The electric colours reflecting off their chrome lower jaw

PWYW comm for @grocklekaug.is-grow.ing
[ #art #commission #kaiju #furry #furryart ]

Why tho, brain?

The dragon and kobold both have a shocked expression at their alternate forms. The kobold is pointing at the dragon as if to ask "Who are you?"

Just a funny idea I wanted to draw

#kobold #dragon #art #furryart

The image shows a dragon-cat, colored in a black and purple color-scheme with red eyes, pinning a small planet resembling earth beneath one of its front paws, while sticking out its tongue, signaling to play with it. There is text on the side as well. "Awww, look! Catto wants to play just like you do all the time!" "Adorable..."

"You leave that thing alone in the room for five minutes and now it's crushing the tectonic plates of my fidget toy into the stone floor.

Let me guess... The Moon is stuck in a sock under my bed and the Sun is under the fridge again?"

🎨= @larukdragon.bsky.social

#macrofurry #macro #furryart #cat

Portrait of a dracthyr character with dark brown and yellow scales, yellow glowing eyes and two horns, one of which is 3/4 metal, smelted onto the remaining nub. He is looking down at the viewer with a judgmental gaze.

Portrait commission for @/kingmusicalmel.bsky.social

#dracthyr #WarcraftArt #art

My room already looks so... dead. Except for breakable stuff, I already packed kinda everything.
... God, this will take time to get used to.

Especially looking at the TV feels so very sad now in comparison 😭

"...Can..... can you pat me on the head... and tell me everything will be okay?"

#TemptationsBalladVN

Reality's slowly catching up to me again with less than a week left at home. I still don't feel ready, to be honest.

... Hate those late-night-thoughts. But luckily it's far from how it was a month ago.

I've lost around 5 kg weight in 2,5 weeks... either its caused by the stress or eating different really does the trick after all.

Not that I'd complain, but if the second's the case I have one more reason to look forward to my new life.

awawawa

I think I've just came up with the perfect revenge-plan on my dear ex-bosses and colleagues.

It will finally pay out that half the town knows me - and that I have good connections to all of them.

It has the potential to become like a witchhunt 💅

A little boop from Zeraora

This one's not even a month old and it aged like a fine roadkill. At least the circumstances.

Oh, and here's the link for this. Japanese though!
my9games.com

9 games that made me who I am -

Had to dig deeeep into my childhood-memories for the most part, but I can't say that I associate bad memories with any of it.
Even thinking about how me and my sister were playing GTA all the time, just fooling around... as we were 11 and 9 years old... good times.

Hug me until I smell like you
#ferret

But as I already mentioned before, the moral of the story: Don't let your work, good as it may seems, become your whole being. It will never be worth it - you're replacable. Keep a healthy distance to everything work-related.

And: Treasure your friends, as they'll be the light amidst darkness

It is a huge step in many ways. I always talk about it as a "Hard cut" mentally-wise. But it's "just" a new chapter of life. Maybe a chapter, that finally brings light into my previous dark life.
At the end of March, I'll officially work as a bavarian citizen - going further step by step.

2 of my 5 applications were successful - at a notary and at the court. Lastly I chose to go with the notary. Today I signed the contract.

Which means, that my wish of living near the alps in Bavaria, very close to friends, really comes true 💚

A short Life-Update:

I was fired from my job while I also intended to quit. My ex-bosses were expecting me to work until the end of April after that, but with me quitting, I just have to bridge March - which I can without any trouble.

At the same time I applied for other jobs - in Bavaria.

All that because bullying me at work seems to be encouraged by my boss.

The lecture from that: It doesn't matter how much you sacrifice for your job, how good you are at it, how important you are, how much money or clients you bring in or what a "good family" you all are.
You're just a worker.

Because after I did ride both for the first time, as strong as my fear was, I couldn't stop riding them and enjoyed it to the fullest.
I know that its a totally different situation with nothing being in my control currently; only being able to hope and pray that -something- works out somehow.

I'm absolutely fricking afraid of everything that happens in the (very) near future. Regardless of how it'll end.
Its comparable to how I felt when I first wanted to ride a rollercoaster or the Free-Fall-Tower as a 14-year-old. But I'm trying to also cheer me up with this comparison -