Not really feeling anything lately. Sometimes it feels like people don’t want to have genuine conversations anymore.

I try and I get left on read, or they just react with an emoji.

I’m confused, I’m tired.

First Lunar New Year without my aunt, it feels weird. But she’s in a better place now. She’s not suffering anymore.

I’m still pissed af. I spent so many years self learning how to paint. Getting the opportunity of a lifetime to learn from a master artist in Singapore, only to be accused of AI. マジで！😡

I went to a family gathering yesterday. Conversation was talking about my art. Then a cousin accused me of using AI. I want to 💀

I hate AI!!!!

Yeah, sucks. I legit wanna ignore everyone now hahaha and just disappear. Fuck trying to keep friendships. I’ll just sit alone in my room 😩👌

I’m kidding of course 😭

I think I’ll just distance myself and eventually unfollow him on socials. It’s very hurtful when he didn’t even to reach out at all recently. The last I heard from him was that he was busy with wedding things, but I thought it was happening next year or something.

Whatever I guess.

Idk if anyone remembers me ranting about my friend cancelling a meet up at the very last minute after I flew for hours to Singapore to meet up with my friends.

Yeah he got married today, and guess who didn’t get invited to the wedding ✨ me.

I guess I thought we were close friends, I guess wrong.

I don’t know if it’s because it’s the time of the month but I’m so pissed off I could combust into flames.

I hurt my neck, so stuck moving around like Batman 😭

Everyone I know is getting married 😭 when is it my turn. Why do all the guys I date end up being jerks 🥲

It’s also super awkward when I meet the neighbour guy on my evening walk. TLDR, we had a thing for like a while. It never really went anywhere despite us talking often. Last I heard from mutuals he’s still single. Idk idk, it’s so complicated and awkward!!!!

TIL there’s tickets for album releases 😱

Hope I can draw soon. I’m currently on standby to watch over my aunt who’s hospitalised. I brought my iPad but nurses and doctors keep coming in and out I feel anxious 🥲

Ah…. I can read what she’s tweeting and she called me a foreign monkey… wow, is this how you treat your customers??? I hope your business bankrupt ✨

I could buy a game for 20 dollars. I could buy a nice meal for 20 dollars. I could buy art supplies for 20 dollars. This crazy artist thinks money grows on trees.

I told Ann to cancel my order. No way in hell am I supporting this entitled narcissistic bitch.

I’m just trying to support an artist and this is what I get. smh

Who the fuck buys a keychain at 20 dollars. Delulu ass mf. She proceeded to get all sassy on her Twitter and screenshot share to her stories on Instagram. And basically insinuated that I’m a rich foreigner who wants to get her merch at a cheaper price.

She continues to explain her dumb logic to me by saying I need to pay USD because it’s not fair to the others who already paid in USD.

This is bad business practice, man. Who the fuck does this. Also guess what. She’s overcharging in USD. She priced a 5cm keychain at USD20.

She said all foreigners have to pay USD when buying her stuff despite Ann being from the same country as her. I told her Ann was also planning to buy stuff from her preorder and ask was she going to charge Ann and I different prices?

So I told the artist and she was mad! She said I was trying to undercut her profits by asking Ann to buy because their currency is smaller. She assumed I live in Japan so my money is “bigger”.

Kinda wild. I tried to order some stuff from an artist from a different country who’s having preorders open. Thing is, I have a friend (I’ll call her Ann) who’s also from that country so I thought to ask Ann to make the order on my behalf.

Boothing at anime events and you end up being the target of the mean girls who booth often. Yayyyy… /sarcasm.

You’re like 30, you’ve been out of high school longer than you’ve been in high school. Stop acting like children 🫩

Jealous of all the other artist and their partners when I was boothing alone 😭
But I’m too shy to sign up for dating apps and horror stories from friends who used them scare me 🫠

I have classmates from uni who only spy on my art from my Stories but don’t like it or share it. Like at this point why are you still following me??? All I post on that account is art anyways 🤡

That’s how they get us, make us want them all. And if the cute one is a secret version, there goes my money 😭🫠

I’ll go look for it hehe 😆

Ohhhh!!! I studied in Singapore for a year. I only used Amazon, and Taobao back then 🥲

Oooh, is shopee like taobao?

Maymei are super cute 🥺 is it available online?

Yeahhhh there was one that I only liked one 🥲 I had to bury my wallet in my bag so I don’t spend at all 🫠 it does feel like gambling!! I managed to avoid the Labubu craze, it was everywhere here 🫣