i would also have a horrible poker face if i had to talk to the political vocal equivalent of the grudge

my dating profile set to women only: “i don’t like men”

the dating app: “a man likes you!”

ok so i’m gonna fucking commit arson

dude i’m useless

i’m tired of feeling ostracized and “other” - i need to go look for somewhere i belong and leave the pain behind.

which is gonna take years of work but it’s ok, finally having a goal is kind of nice

i mean it’s more convoluted and has been ramping up for like 10 years but bc ppl online love nutshells so much: yep

“you cut off your family bc of who they voted for?” yep

finally cut off my family and i’m just realizing how many things i was not doing due to risking their approval.

i’m gonna get my hands tatted and more facial piercings
i’m gonna paint my house fun colors when renovating and after i sell it i’m gonna move to CO or CA, somewhere blue and queer af

y’know what sucks the most is i have actual symptoms of ptsd from this shit noted by my psyc np

dayjob is adjacent to war veterans who got them from people blowing up in front of them

and i got them from *checks notes* shit quality relationships

cringe

real pity party hours for the neurodivergent sapph but whatever i deserve a treat

existing in this timeline makes no sense to me and i think that’s why i’m the common variable. i wish i could just be plucked into another universe where people actually gave a fuck.

like why do i have to curb my natural empathy & effort levels in all relationship forms (professional/platonic/romantic) to keep from being harmed by those who refuse to even attempt to reciprocate? why is that a learning curve on MY END?

why is the hardest lesson i’ve had to teach myself over the past 10 years or so of being an adult that in order to avoid being hurt i have to…give less of a shit?

obama and biden celebrating rev jackson’s life with subtle critiques of the current sociopolitical climate.

all the poc cheering in the crowd for both of them.

after so long of hearing the bumbling asshole in chief talk about ballrooms and making friends with fascists, this was so nice.

someone i knew since hs removed me as a follower and unfollowed me on insta and y’know what

bit rude

you ever just watch your napping doggy just decide to get up and go get a drink of water?

like wow. he is so cute i love him sm.

i had influenza a for a week and then two weeks later had a stomach flu so violent i was actually asking for death

so anyway i lived

i posted on my neighborhood nextdoor that i got the flu from going to a specific store and reminded people to wash their hands.

holy shit you’d think i told everyone to run over their mothers with their cars.

when did i start saying “frankly” so much

whose personality did i imprint on enough for me to hit “copy + paste” onto my own

i got a write up at my second job bc i’m not fast enough at it.

2 more and i get fired and frankly atp i’m so burnt out idk if it’s something i’m trying to avoid or achieve.

like “god bless america” followed by every latin/hispanic country in it with the u.s. and canada randomly thrown in somewhere + “the only thing more powerful than hate is love” he’s the sailor moon of our time goodbye

i don’t care about football so i looked up bad bunny’s halftime show performance after it was uploaded to yt and it was so beautiful i cried and haven’t been able to think about much else since

I’M SO FUCKING SICK OF MY EXPERIENCE ON EVERY SINGLE PART OF THE FUCKING INTERNET BEING RESTRICTED BC CHILDREN THAT STEAL THEIR PARENTS’ CREDIT CARDS MAKE MORE MONEY FOR COMPANIES. I HAVEN’T HEARD THE WORD “FUCK” ON YOUTUBE WITHOUT AN AGONIZING CENSOR SINCE TWENTY FUCKING SIXTEEN EAT MY ASS DISCORD.

imagine if i were a mafia boss, instead of a cigar you’d find me in my study with the prettiest pink glass pipe and just-enough-to-be-legal-in-my-state THC-A in it

with a lot of snacks

congrats to jeffrey dean morgan specifically since he’s the only one i, as a wisconsin non-sports girl, know of who’s a seahawks fan lol

“friendly reminder uwu that ur payment is due soon-“

EAT SHIT OFF MY DICK

a man wearing sunglasses is sitting in a car and making a peace sign . ALT: a man wearing sunglasses is sitting in a car and making a peace sign .

an aunt i haven’t talked to in over 10 years friend requested me on the fb account i dont use

today specifically my caffeine intake is a fighter jet pilot doing a nosedive and my vyvanse capsule is picking petals off of flowers in a field 100 yards away

can yall quick flip it and reverse it so i can GET SOME FUCKING WORK DONE

i have to call a plumber and like.

this is when my feminism is at its weakest ya feel

when i get like super low in my depression my brain goes into like fight or flight about staying alive it’s weird lol

hey guess who dropped the ball again lol