First night home alone since Bruce passed

Just doesn't feel right without him with me right now

I miss you buddy

Damn okay then lol
This is adult content apparently

Not a great image but wanted to share this somewhere so it's going here I guess

She's barely been online
Still have hope we'll get to actually talk again but idk

Ok we have talked a bit more
Seems like it's going well

They got off and didn't answer part of the last question sent but I feel more confident in this one so far

Okay hold

They just accepted the req

Could something happen?

Well woke up a bit ago and still nothing

Really hope this new person I was talking to accepts

They just suddenly vanished

Pls 🤞

And also to add onto the 2nd one, looking at their discord bio, they clearly aren't going through a good time atm

If I was in their shoes, I'd be ecstatic to see someone I liked giving me a 2nd chance. So who knows if they ever actually really liked me

Third also seemed interested but I haven't even gotten to properly talk to them still. They saw the message I sent a couple days ago yesterday and still nothing

This one also has a chance but the lack of response despite seeing the message makes me unsure on that

2nd one actually happens to be someone I met a few months ago. They hurt me badly because of how poorly they handled something
Just happened to find them on a dating app and figured I'd re-open the door
They seemed interested but it's been almost a week and nothing. Not fully ruling this one out yet

First one we talked for a few days and after I felt like I wasn't sure if they were still interested, I decided to just not say anything to see if they'd reach out. It's been a week now with nothing

I think I might lose my mind if I have to deal with one more person that seems interested and then proceeds to do absolutely nothing just a few days later

I wonder if I have some form of bpd

Wasn't something I thought I had, but looking into it there is some stuff that lines up

I was gonna say something else but I forgot

I love him :3

One of these days I’ll finally do it again

How do I convince myself to do it

Cause I’m wanting to

But some part of me isn’t wanting to

Small part of me is debating taking a bunch of the pills I’ve got before I go to bed

I wonder what’ll happen when someone I recognize finds this account

On one hand I’d want you to like this post
But on the other I’d probably have a panic attack or something if that happened

Fuck it. I’m no coward
Go ahead and like this post, who cares what could happen to me

Might try something very risky tomorrow

Or maybe Thursday actually since I might be too busy Wednesday

Surprisingly not me killing or hurting myself intentionally

That could definitely happen though with what I wanna try. I just wouldn’t be the one doing it to myself

Please let this be enough to finally push me over the edge

please

Fuck you right brain, let me kill myself you coward

i just want to be worse
please
just let it end already
ive been done for years now

Wasn’t really planning on doing this much but it just kinda happened I guess

Now all I have are super brief moments of actually wanting to kill myself
Most of the time Im just numb cause only the vocal part of my brain wants to die
Hopefully I can actually fully convince myself sometime soon but who knows

Also its gonna be genuinely shocking if I actually survive this year