my mom being like "hey did you know you have bills. did you know this. i was just making sure you're aware" is like my ever present nightmare

this icon makes me look so distressed but I'm chill

girl who has never experienced being able to live day to day with relative stability emotionally and little to no major caveats

like it's not that i doubted myself or anything but like. this level of comfort in a new home so quickly was not expected

it is really weird to be in such a drastically different area and actually be managing. i expended so much effort and thought into getting here but i didn't actually think things would go this smoothly

honestly I can't complain too much because life is still relatively cozy for me but I am excited to not have to live around my mom anymore. she is so miserable all the time and it can be a bit draining to exist around

been losing a bit of weight lately and it feels nice. I was at a healthy weight all things considered but I miss being thin a little

I did it. back to lounging

okok packing day. I will do at least some packing today

I am unreasonably sleepy

conversation I had with my mom: "I'm not gonna die if I have to go without furniture for a week" "I'm afraid you're gonna die"

my coworkers talk about me like I'm passing away in a week

wishing you a swift recovery

encountered an important Adachi today

generally now I'd like to think people have an easy time being around me and that's a good feeling. almost like I'm making up for lost time in that regard and it's nice to be someone most people can talk to casually

honestly proud of how much I've mellowed out over the years. it's difficult for me to envision now but I used to radiate pressure in ways that I'm honestly surprised people were able to deal with. it's not something I feel bad about because it's nice to have changed but still

it's always odd to hear your own voice in general so all things considered I don't mind too much

generally not conscious of my own voice but sometimes I hear it and think "well I'm not a fan of that but I hope others are"

you got it. I've always wanted an excuse to use one of these

she and I are much the same in this way. and surely that's where the comparisons end

and honestly if I don't have some kind of task at all times I start getting antsy. it's enrichment to me

had the thought of "I could pack today but do I really need to" and immediately drove it away from my mind. the move is so close

I've had a string of back and forth emotions as of late but this morning feels unequivocally pleasant. I'm in a good mood

what a lovely morning it's been so far

you have a poster's soul. it is simply the way it is

this has been one of the fastest moving years of my life

March being tomorrow is scary. I'm torn because I am excited for new things but also slow down

speaking objectively you are probably the best poster on the site. at least in our general circles in terms of the ones I've seen

fell asleep without meaning to and now everything feels off. I thought it was 7 AM for a second

that's much better