Down 30lbs, muscle mass 📈, the gym really saving my life, baby I can MOVE and POWERFULLY

Thank you and also we’re gonna need to grab coffee or something soon fam

This was a really rough week for me, grief shows up when it wants to. That being said, I’m proud of gentleness I handled myself with. Routines, the gym and my support system can not be defeated. So much gratitude 🙏🏾

Really honed in on being in this world, not of this world rn. It’s the only way I can keep what sanity I have left.

It got bad for ya girl. So I quit drinking, (again), quit sugar, eliminated processed foods, and locked in with a personal trainer 3 days a week. Shits still bad and I may bend but I won’t break.

Love that you keep a pro tip for me Dan

In this role I finally figured out that it’s not so much about getting it “right” (bc there’s a hundred right ways to do a thing) as it is about doing it the way your team expects to see it done and it’s removed so much stress and self judgement. Shout out to my first 90 days 🚀

I need to tell y’all about the power of asking yourself “What would the person I want to be do right now?” when you want to give in to the heaviness

I’m so sorry to have lost him but I have such deep gratitude for the example his life set. If I can be half the human being he was I will have done a great thing.

He wasn’t a thought leader, he was cognitively disabled. But he was kind and loving and that meant so much to people. He didn’t do it for them though, he was just always that person. I’m so glad to he showed me what’s important

His homegoing was beautiful. We stress so much about achieving and being successful but I think we might be worried about the wrong things. So many community members showed up to talk about the love they had for my brother. He didn’t launch a unicorn, he held a sign outside LittleCesars for 17 years

Because of tech money, my brother is at rest with no lingering debts for my parents to worry about so at least there’s that.

My brother is gone now. I hope I never let him down.

🫂

I’ve been up since 5. Could have spent 5-6 crying but no I had to wait until 5 minutes before the workday started. Poor time management tbh

I have two biological relatives that are a part of my life. Knowing that the one that was supposed to bury me will be leaving this earth before I do is incredibly hard. Barring anything unexpected I will be the last one left. I already struggle connecting, I’m not sure how to do this.

Think Ima stop questioning why I always come out on top. It’s my birthright.

My brother finally stabilized enough to leave the hospital today. WON’T HE DO IT???

In case it’s not clear, this is a good thing. I’m happy to be in at a place that has me thinking about 5 years from now instead of feeling like it’s a stepping stone to get me to the next gig.

Never gone this many days on a new gig without shipping something, possibly excluding my first role. I’m not the brightest or most talented by far and that’s such a blessing. This quarters goal is competency. Next year they’ll call me a rock star. Marathon pacing this time.

So much gratitude for all I’ve been given steward over and the ability it’s given me to protect my family from at least some of the cruelties this world has to offer.

Understandable

Started spending some time on Twitter again for the same reason I watch Fox News from time to time. It’s getting much worse over there in ways you wouldn’t necessarily expect.

🔥 I like to talk about what should be vs what is a lot. It shouldn’t happen but it is what it is and learning how to navigate and steer things towards your desired outcome is what’s gonna serve you in the long run.

Look they say pressure busts a pipe for a reason. If you normally have decent interactions with them, maybe bring it up, great things really can come from feedback. Either way you’ll learn something

Hate this. If it’s super urgent, it shouldn’t have been placed on you. If it’s not, the inability to pair with you and help fill your gaps demonstrates a lack of leadership and/or seniority

I swear I thought of you when I got it!

Two days in and of course I was right. I have no idea what’s going on but I’m already starting to form some loose frameworks. The way I know by next year I’m going to be an entirely different caliber of dev.

I can’t get over the juxtaposition of the last month. It’s simultaneously been one of the worst months of my life and one of the most successful. I’m just trying to keep the balance so I can continue to be the rock the people depending on me need me to be. So far, so good

Energy!