so sorry to hear about your loss, he sounds like he was an amazing lad

i remember the apple tv one quite well myself... oh, the nostalgia...😊

didnt get the job.

might try that, just oughtta a see if theres anything like that where i am, and more important if it'll work into my life with like college and also this job im possibly getting etc

development. that number plate i found in the road was actually 2 different number plates stuck together. one from a 2000 vw polo that hasnt had an mot check since 2021 and failed said mot check and a 2022 vw id4

love when someone begs me to block them then complains when i do then complains when i dont etc etc like... guh

if someone asks me if im okay, then when i say no asks me whats up then ghosts me one more time idk what ill do

i know i said my last post was 'all for tonight' but im just a tad upset about this now

-alyx

yall ive been wondering like

when do things get better

thats all for tonight

- alyx

ive finally driven a car in the uk. it feels so odd considering the last time i drove was a manual car in the EU and this was a modern auto in the uk so a lot was different

yeah, the issue is trying to find people like that aye, working on it though...

DAY 832 - the big one and the little one

Willy Crash arcade game stuck on error screen

i guess he will

my bigger issue at the moment is all the people i cut off when i was at a severe low just to realise they didnt even notice or care based on the complete and utter lack of a single word from them, (vs a big caring reaction for anyone else, my awkwardness making it super hard to make new friends, etc

ditto to last post. i need friends and shit that dont think of me as nothing, that actually want to talk to me, thatll actually reply all that.

i hate how "meow" gets more likes than i get on most of my posts.

i wish i could have ideas to render to be worth yalls time but i dont.

sorry
- alyx

yall, I'll be honest, I aint doing great. losing everyone i thought of as a friend and realising they didnt care not one bit has taken its toll.

number plate SL7I XDF next to a kids toy on the pavement. it has a green stripe on the left designating it is off an electric vehicle

cant park there mate

meow

that is all

good god being on hrt has taken its tolls on me emotionally, i genuinely cannot listen to my favourite architects track (doomsday piano reprise) without tearing up and in some cases crying like goddamn

anyone got any ideas yall want to see in my renders when i start doing em again

fire!!!!

im slowly becoming done with trying to prevail, nothing is going right

i hope it gets better but i truly doubt it...

the realisation that people i called my friends mere months ago have forgotten i exist and havent reached out in months is really telling of the kinda shit people they are, i hope i find better people for i am sick of fakes

hopefully ill have the motivation to render smth soon, no promises. ill try

a powermac g4 sat next to an oven with a pot and a box of mac and cheese

god i wish there was an easier recipe

some days i wonder why i stick around. put myself through physical and mental pain for nothing. i left the friend group i was in longest and the friends i was closest with and nobody cares. everyone moves on. i keep pushing but it feels pointless aye

i hope nobody else feels like this.

DAY 826 - this 👇 fish 🐟 got 🐐 dressed 👗 up ⬆️ ‼️

GitHub - HutchyBen/TheCookies: THE official HutchyBen cookie recipe THE official HutchyBen cookie recipe. Contribute to HutchyBen/TheCookies development by creating an account on GitHub.

Had some of these amazing #FOSS #OpenSource #FreeAsInFreedom #Libre cookies recently github.com/HutchyBen/Th...

wee call to action: is there anything from me youd *like* to see, like any render ideas, different art forms, maybe photography? just curious if anyone has any good ideas

#furryart #blender3d #photography

i've not posted art for a while and i feel bad about that, most of the people following me are doing so for the sole reason of me making art. life hasn't been great for me lately. i just wanna say its okay to not be okay, you dont have to be perfect to be loved. your imperfections make you unique <3

Yuzuki, nine-tailed kitsune, in their one-tailed normal fox ""disguise""

fluffy fluffy Yuzu fops....

YES!
HOLY FUCK
YYYYEEEEESSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!