i know it's not true but it eats at me when i don't get the social activity i need.... it's kind of my fault for valuing certain relationships a lot but i have no idea what to do.
i don't want more friends I just want the ones I have to be a bigger part of my life :(
i don't want to feel this way but when i get left alone it really seems like nobody gives a fuck about me
still drawing :o3 hehehe
user error ^_^ i'm glad it's the second wind i needed since i've been stalling so much lately
turns out i have been handicapping myself on chunithm for months. oops :)
time to get self conscious about posting my art online :) oh boy!!!
still drawing??? what the actual fuck (barely)
maybe i just need to cry. i feel awful lately... it's so tough dealing with this sometimes ;;;
it really is the happiest i can ever be ;___; i miss them so much.... ughhhhh
thoughts catching up to me today.... i wish i could hang out with my best friends irl right now :(
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still drawing :3
bsky.app/profile/hard...
finished it :)
starting to feel like a broken person again... as if i am missing components everybody else has :(
lain
idk if i'm ever gonna finish this but i hope i can make it look okay :(
Bask in it 🕯️
i want to lean on someone on a sofa and watch videos.... weh;;;
it gets easier but it also gets harder. every year i retain bonds across the ocean that never disappear and yet i always feel like i am one step away from never being seen again.
feeling the weight of isolation today
still drawing :) fuck yes dude
it is but they paid her afterwards lol... erm..... so i guess that's.... ok?? except not really. 😭
its a struggle going from "this is dogshit" but then you edit it a thousand times and do the lineart and suddenly it looks great ;__;
im actually so impressed i am still drawing?? i know it hasn't even been a week but. i literally give up on every hobby i start. i can barely finish a video game.
controller isn't arriving today but it somehow got to the UK in 3 days flat. insane logistic tech, did not know you knew ball china
i want to be able to make my own stuff and also make stuff for people i care about !! waaaa
going to start drawing. as a hobby.... i really hope i can stick to it ;;; i always get self conscious about how many friends are professional and hobby artists... ;;
im so self conscious about how people perceive me even though everybody tells me im someone they want to be around :(