Fuck recovery i been back to restricting for the past week and i feel so much better

Ngl lost a bunch of weight during a study trip and something changed in me seeing my ribcage return as the rightful ruler of my torso. Like part of me still wants to be smaller, even thinner, but I look at my body and see sickness.

I can't keep losing to the brainworms. I'm stronger than this.

Feeling kind of silly because why do i attach so much value to my packaging when what i should really be concerned with is the spoiled content that the packaging holds

I FEEL SO OLD AND OVERRIPE LIKE I'M ONLY 26?? In the prime of my life! Physically in good health and mature enough to be reasonable again! The most youthful i will ever look and perfectly attractive yet i can't stop looking at myself like im a neglected building i inhabit

If I'm not useful and beautiful (simultaneously) then i am a worthless person, according to the worms

This sign can't stop me bc i can't read 🤓 I'm sure it's not bad, maybe it just weighs down your hair a little. I hope you feel lovely and refreshed after your ahower tho!

This is news to me?? Why would they not call it hair mask if you need to rinse it out 😭

Stagnated around 50 kg I'm gonna sew my mouth shut so i can't eat

Recovery never made the taunting fade. The whispers of want and jealousy that lunge for my chest whenever i see thin legs and tiny waists. It's convincing me "if you made it to bmi 15 last time you could have been perfect like that... or not but you would've known...."

Shhhh don't tell me what you're thinking because i already know. I know the pride, happiness and pleasure of the ugw is a mirage that will keep eluding me.

I just want to hit 44kg once i just need to see bmi 15 with my own eyes on my own body and then i will let it go and recover fr

Why am i so LAZY pls it's ruining me

Ok it's been a month i will do measurements in the next days to shame myself out of this overeating era

I can't not bring food with me to school because it'll be obvious to my parents I'm not eating while I'm away from home but i also feel like an award-winning piece of shit from the shining shitshow for throwing perfectly good food away

Need some gentle parenting techniques to apply to myself tbh

I know i shouldn't be weighing myself daily but it's like the first thing i do every morning 😬😬

I hope you feel better soon dear 🫂

The weight i lost all came from my ass why is the universe so mean to me

Back to school and my mind is only 10% occupied by actual important things and 90% filled with mental illness

What am i doing with my life

Fever makes my brain even more jumbled than usual and the people around me are like wtf is this dumbass trying to say

Oh dear, i hope you recover soon!! And congratulations on your lawful marriage, may your days together be blessed with laughter and health

Oh my god I've been in bed with a fever ever since winter break hit, someone please end my suffering

Me and my big mouth ruining all of my plans. I was gonna be mysterious and elegant and skinny but nooooo my loud ahdh ass always oversharing and overeating

Not sure how I'm gonna be able to restrict the upcoming few weeks because of winter break. I usually just omad the family dinner but now i'll be home most of the time,,, I love my mother but I wish it was easier to get away with starving

Train bathroom fit check

Outfit ate but i'm embarrassed going to class in it ngl

Life would be so much more enjoyable if I got a lobotomy

and with that, here's the birth of my new moderation list meant to block fetishizers: bsky.app/profile/did:...

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Scale reading 54,3 kg

Embarrassingly shaped legs in high tights resting on my desk

Stats 17-12-24
Measured in the evening

Height: 171 cm
Weight: 54 kg
Bmi: 18.3

Neck: 32.5
Waist: 70.5 cm
Bust: 80 cm
Hips: 80 cm
Butt: 90 cm

Upper thigh: 51.5 cm
Above knee: 40 cm
Calf: 36 cm
Ankle: 23 cm

Upper arm: 22 cm
Above elbow: 20 cm
Forearm: 21 cm
Wrist: 16 cm