"I'm sorry I left you alone."

He shakes his head, before opening his arms for a hug.

"Let's get better then, aight?"

"And that some people hate me for the dumb shit I did while I was spiralling...people I hurt...that kinda thing."

He closes his eyes.

"Guess we're alike in that way."

He crosses his arms.

"I'm happy, at least. That neither of us are worse off."

"So...how ya been, huh? I've been...trying to rectify some wrongs."

"....Deon."

He has his hands in his pockets.

"Dealt with some stuff while I was away."

"Heeeyy, guess who's back?"

"I gotta get a story for Interdimensional, but there's nothing that happens around here. Nothing too crazy, anyways."

The Freak Circus by Garula 18+ Yandere

If you don't know the game this comes from- it's The Freak Circus by nekoblackcat.bsky.social!! so check him and the game garula.itch.io/the-freak-ci... out if you can. It's a demo you can play without downloading so if you like horror and yanderes check it out!!!

((No idea where to post, so- VA Stuff?!! here's a monologue of a yandere jester talking over the Protag's sleeping body, losing his mind for the first time. this is my first take and I'm gonna do it again to get better quality for much bettter mixing. but shut up im really proud of this voice

𝙳𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚔𝚢'𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚖𝚒𝚝

-Deon.-

𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎'𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚘𝚝𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚗

(( Guess I'll try this again. I've got hope in my heart.

Do not follow me thinking I will do anything less than screenshot, block you, and do my best to have you mass reported.

I have banished that side of me. I will do nothing with it but make sure the ashes of what I've burned scatter in the wind and never return.

☆☆ oh, and one last thing. I completely and utterly detest all things loli, underaged, or rape related. I am not on your side, I'm not nuanced, I'm not understanding- I HATE you. Because unlike me you have no shame and will not change.

Do not dm me expecting me to be a closet.

☆☆ keeping that in mind, I might return and try and turn a semi-clean slate. I miss this place and I wish to prove I've gotten better.

The best time to repent was before I started being a depraved pervert and letting it ruin my relationships, and hurt others.

The second best time is now.

☆☆ with nsfw endeavors in the backburner. If you go onto Twitter and search up #𝙎𝙏𝘼𝙍𝙕 you'll see:

1. The cable channel STARZ
2. A shitton of n/sfw accounts writing tons of fight threads and lore (that's us!)

So that's where my effort's went to keep my hands busy.

☆☆ the reason i couldn't leave the internet completely is because I am pretty much alone behind the screen, and I wanted to take my writing and recovery very seriously.

So I used my newfound lack of lust to create an rp group for NSFW account that haven't had anywhere to put their lore into.

☆☆ I haven't, actually. I've been on Twitter under the same name. Transformed my NSFW into N/SFW and flipped all my accounts to mirror my accounts on this place, keeping all but my Deon account SFW with NSFW DMs, and very rare dms at that. I've moved my Alastor and Jax accounts to Twit.

☆☆ hey all. It's been a bit, and I think anyone that remembers me deserves an update as to where I've been on my recovery as of late.

So, where have I been? Have I disappeared to the shadows where I've sat low, waiting for it all to blow over and for everyone to forget about my degenerate actions?

I am the problem.

I need to fix that. I need to become better.

It's getting in the way of my hobbies. I can't count the times I've been looking to write something, like a Hazbin short story or something about Spamton or Shadow the Hedgehog- just to get horny, jerk off and forget about it.
I've ended arcs for this shit.
It got me into all this trouble.

☆☆ i have had a realization.

I have a porn addiction. Or at least I'm starting to develop one
It's taking away from things I need to do
it's leading me down roads I have no business hanging in,
And I need to do something about it.

(Or StargazinDeon, I can't remember which rn).

If you're a friend that's still here, I am sorry for breaking your trust like this. I am sorry for doing this in the first place. I am sorry for hurting you.

and body altering experience as a fetish, and I am sorry for not addressing this the way I was meant to: by seeking out a medical professional. I will now be doing so in my absence.

If you wish to reach out to me to ask more questions or just chew me out, my Discord tag is StargazingDeon

To answer a probably frequently asked question:

The Non-Con was a recent development, as was the Incest. I was not listening to peoples horrid stories with this in my mind, and I'm sorry if this made you believe I was.

I am sorry to all the victims for treating their horrifying, traumatic, life-

Rather than telling you all I'll never do it again, I will do just that- never do it again. it was a disgusting experiment that I thought I was doing with another consenting adult and I backed out, disgusted before it could get super crazy, and it will never cross my mind again.

☆☆ alright, after some time talking to my SO, I have decided that I am not leaving for GOOD.

But I will be gone for a good while. At least a month or two. MAYBE longer. To reflect on the horrid things I've done and do something about myself.

When I return, I'll do the only thing that matters- ACT.

misunderstanding- this is a fuck up. A major league, diabolical, disgusting fuck up on my part and mine alone.

I'm sorry, and I'll be off.

☆☆ I'm not even going to try and lie. I'm not one to do that.

Yes, those screenshots were real. I fucked up heavily even outside of the fact that they lied about their age.

I don't feel like typing out everything, so here's what I have to say on the matter.

Unlike the Osu thing, which was a-

☆☆ Iris fuckin lied to me...God I'm about to throw up