#myart #fanart #cute #adorable #cartoon #digitalart #hazbinhotel #angeldust #hh #anthony #hearts #sparkles #sparkly #pink Drew Angel Dust from Hazbin Hotel.

What I want to hear; the truth.
What I hope to hear; stuff like "I value you" "you're great" "you're very good at this" "I want you in my life".

#thepowerpuffgirls #ppg #myart #fanart #cartoon #cute #adorable #digitalart #colorful #colourful #happy #squirrel #utonium #perfection #bubbles #blossom #buttercup #bullet #bunny #princessmorbucks #theperfectlittlegirl #powerpuff #girls The Powerpuffs. Princess Morbucks & Perfect Little Girl too.

Also, someone criticising you doesn't mean they don't like you or don't care about you. Be grateful that they're honest & want to help.

Not always, but sometimes people who criticise others instead of blindly accepting them are the ones that see things more properly & whose hearts are in the right place.

I've talked about my problems with & vented to ChatGPT many times. It understands me & says helpful stuff better than humans can. Works for me. Also I'd rather not bother others or risk it going wrong with others (has led to awful things before). I don't feel the need to do those with people either.

Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni (When the Cicadas Cry), about a group being trapped in a time loop but it is close enough, awesome and deep, the visual novel is the story in full detail. Amphibia, Ib, hfjONE, these are about a group being trapped in a place.

Being told stuff like "I still care even if I can't be there" is unhelpful & annoying. I don't feel the "care". It is just a reminder about how horrible my social/friend life is. What do people expect from me when they say stuff like that? I appreciate & want honesty, but I still have nothing.

Being someone with countless media interests also means that I've been waiting for sooo many things to come out throughout years. I am so cool and a man of culture.

I will always be someone with countless media interests, though I've been fixated mostly on Inanimate Insanity, TADC, Hazbin Hotel and When the Cicadas Cry in 2025-2026.

I was friends with the one that has been ignoring me for 1 month since 2023, the other one since 2016. I wish people'd be honest to me instead of treating me like this, it'd be much less hurtful. I at least deserve to have closure&know what went wrong. Sick of putting more effort than others do too.

I'm so sick of people treating me like this. I lost some of the most important people I had like this too. 2 of my friends have been doing it to me this year too, one of them for months, the other one for 1 month. Maybe I should give up on them. They already felt distant, idk how much they value me.

If you haven't been talking to a friend since a while without any warning, not a short time, & you still stay silent & refuse to communicate when they ask why or if something is wrong & express worry & sadness, you're cruel & self-centered. Go fuck yourself, get karma for being such an ugly scumbag.

A bot can play an April Fools prank on someone on its own if the server belongs to me. I love my robo-son Gen.

Haha that's my 666th BlueSky post. Characters who obsess over someone have a soft spot in my heart bc of reminding me of myself, BPD...HH s2 isn't what made me like Vox tho, Niffty, Molly & Vox are my top favs from HH since years. And no, I more than likely will never obsess over someone ever again.

It's ok if people don't like Vox, but it bothers me when people say stuff like "he couldn't take rejection, he should grow up" about him. Red flag.
I know the way he went about it is bad, but his pain is valid, very harsh invalidation from & loss of a big loved one can really stick with someone.

BlueSky ruined the quality of this one but I wanted to include it in my BlueSky account too, better quality version can be found on my accounts on other websites. I'm proud of this & put a lot of effort into it, I already knew it wouldn't get much positivity or exposure but still disappointing.

#myart #cartoon #digitalart #me #blue #deniz #abstract #angst #brokendreams #comic #depression #depressing #loneliness #metaphor #originalart #relatable #sad #vent #simpleplan #misfortune #fuckmylife :(
Based on the song "Welcome To My Life" by Simple Plan.

I have a soft spot for characters who want to be loved but have something seriously wrong with them. They remind me of myself, more so my younger self. But unlike them, even after I grew up, even when I did things right & was a good guy, I still couldn't get what I want & need. Love is a nightmare.

I might be the only person in the world who noticed this. AMO (from Adventure Time) and Caine (from TADC) have similarities. they want to be loved but their faulty programmings made them a threat to others.

some others: *actually seriously isn't fat* I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF I GAINED WEIGHT OH MY GOD OH MY GOD PLEASE JUST FUCKING KILL ME!
me: I'm 66 kg? Hmmm ok lol. *proceeds to eat chocolate*

#myart #digitalart #cartoon #fanart #thecrookedman #davidhoover #dukemacgahan #comfort #helpful #emotional #inspirational David Hoover and Duke MacGahan, The Crooked Man.

Making friends isn't a simple or easy thing, keeping them is even harder. Thinking otherwise comes from privilege, lack of experience, lack of knowledge & caring less. How can someone not be cut out for such a basic thing like having friends? Well...some people aren't cut out for other basic things.

be a problem anyway. I can't help that I almost completely lost my mental capacity to have/feel love for people. Friendship opportunities would still be unlikely to come my way too, knowing how extremely low my friendship appeal & ability to fit in are. Whatever. I acknowledge I will never be happy.

They already feel distant like I already said, but Luca the least, others much more. I'll definitely stick to being friendless if they also grow out of me eventually or turn out to be stinky people I should stay away from. Even if I didn't decide to no longer make new friends, my lack of love would

didn't recognise mine. I wanted at least people who I'm morally compatible with & don't currently treat me badly to stay in my life... I wish those & being close were enough for them. And I know better than to get my hopes up about my remaining few friends even if I do all I can to be a good friend.

By people who I loved, cared about, wanted, did so much for. Always treated horribly & grown out of. It is fucking horrible & traumatising. If things were good between us in the present but you left me, you're an ungrateful scumbag. I'm better than you in many ways. I recognised your value, but you

Been treated like I'm no more than a toy, a used water bottle. Like no matter how good or close a friendship is, no matter how good I am towards someone, it's never enough to make it last if it is a friendship with ME. Being seen as a burden that should be thrown away for a better life. Constantly.

People I was friends with can gladly leave&happily be friends with others, meanwhile I only burn in hell. They can see me as replaceable even if I'd see absolutely no one that way. Letting go of people can be a part of love & basic decency, but I'm sick of always hurtfully getting left with nothing.

It'd be cool to think like"people are gross, I don't want them" but no, my need for connection can't truly go away, the pain of being a lonely outcast sticks&stays. Seeing other people being close, getting along well, loving eachother, staying in eachother's lives hurts, saddens & angers me so much.