This is the most intense depressive episode I've had in a very long time and it's kicking my ass HARD. I'm safe, and in that regard, I'm 'okay' but I'm not okay (if that makes sense). I've just got no energy, I don't care about anything and everything just feels terribly meh... I hate this.
For the last 9 months, I feel I've been robbed of my joy. I can't get into reading, even with old favorites. Games are hit/miss, no movies or shows feel good. Most nights, I get home & just sit & scroll & wait for bed. I want to care again, but I don't. I'm just listless & tired. I've lost my spark.
Not enough people have seen Death to Smoochy and it shows.
I'm on solo dad duty this week and really envying my son's toddler optimism that everything is awesome and cool. (I'm actually crumbling into dust from exhaustion) but he's having a blast, lol
Maybe it'll be like 7 and we'll get a ton of DLCs, lol
Back on antidepressants again because I'm finally ready to admit that I can't dig myself out of this hole and heal without help. My therapy alone hasn't been able to get me out. Which I'm bummed about. I was doing pretty well for about a year. But it's okay. It'll be okay. I have hope.
Running a high school theatre program in this day and age is hard. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY MAKE ROLES IN PLAYS/MUSICALS? WHERE ARE ALL THESE BOYS?
For the first time in my life, I had a dentist visit that wasn't a total nightmare. The hygienist actually read my file and adapted service for my sensory issues. She was so kind and gentle and it got me a little emotional because OMG, is that what it's like being cared for?
Taking a break. I'll see y'all later.
Just got over the flu, then started battling a stomach thing a couple days ago, which is still ongoing. Now, some other respiratory junk's got me. I'm so fuckin tired of being sick.
YES! I read the shit outta those books when I was a kid!
DRAGON BALL SUPER ANIME IS COMING BACK HOLY FUCKIN SHIT
What is the best Nickelodeon show ever and why is it "Hey, Arnold!"?
The just opened one in omaha!
And less Bryan Singer
Jesus Christ Superstar
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Sweeney Todd
Les Misérables
Into the Woods
Finished Stranger Things. I really liked the finale. But I always get depressed when a story ends.
One of my students gets really mad when I refer to him exclusively as Longlegs, lol
PLEASE let that day come soon.
Still very much grieving the child we lost to miscarriage. Right now, I feel like part of me died with them. This depression has been so complete and pervasive, I feel I've not been able to truly enjoy anything these past few months. I feel I'm just drifting through a fog. Just marking time.
Hell yeah! That Ozai Phoenix King is soo cool! I haven't gotten any great pulls yet, but enough to start messing around with an iroh grand lotus commander deck, lol
A movie where a neurodivergent guy finds a new special interest & hyper-focuses on it making it his whole personality, but critically misunderstands the reason for whole thing & doesn't understand why everyone's mad about it until he gets blasted out of the sky.
The Nightmare Before Christmas.
I feel the same... this place is mostly just a 'shout into the void' outlet. Anyone who actually cares, I just text anyway, so it all comes out in the wash.
Funny how a Demogorgon can clear a room full of soldiers in a few seconds, but is constantly getting jocked on by teenagers and middle-aged moms. That plot armor is thiccccccc
Holy shit, THIS
Hot Take: With the new film, folks are about to find out that Wicked is a good half a musical. Act 2 is okay, it just never quite reaches the height (lol) of Act 1.
Just be glad this didn't get the Hobbit treatment & they didn't make Wicked a 3 part film & incorporate a Wizard of Oz remake into it.
With the news of Hamilton Teen Edition becoming available for licensing in 2028, please pray for your Theatre teacher friends at schools with high white populations & relatively low ethnic diversity as tone deaf theatre students ask AD NAUSEUM "can we do Hamilton?!".
NO, y'all are WHITE as fuck, lol
Sometimes the more I learn about myself as an autistic person, the more I feel desperately alone. Self discovery is great, but mentally and emotionally taxing and the world expects me to just keep on. I feel like there's no time to breathe or adjust.
I had an unidentifiable pokey in my shirt yesterday and it drove me nuts all day.
People selling stuff in ads used to be trained actors/voice actors, and now that nearly everyone on social platforms is trying to sell or promote something, but lack the vocal training, you get 'weird YouTuber voice that sounds like this person has never actually talked to another living soul"