wish I could ressurect him just to kill him myself

I really hope it tore him up inside I hope he sat up and night and thought about what he did and wanted to blow his brains all over the wall about it god I hate him I hate him so fucking much I hope he suffers I hope he pays for what he did !

I hope it tormented him every single day when he was still alive until he fucking kicked the bucket and I hope he's in hell forever and ever and it haunts him every day and it never ends because that's what it's fucking like for me !

not to hop on here and fucking tumblr prose post but I hope hell is real and its just for him and he's there and he's suffering and hurting every fucking day

should've fucking done it if I'm being so honest

finally get why people refuse meds don't be surprised is all i can say

I think especially my last doctor would fucking throw a party if I killed .yself

I'm going to end up killing myself I think i think that's what they all want docotd dont want to help someone when they're like me they just want you to atop showijg up by any means neceasary

it's almost been 20 mins I can't fucking do this god go's ogd

Icant fucjing do this anymore I can't I can't I can't

ativan mostly turned off my brain now imjust left with little bitts of hating myself wo deeplu

like genuinel6 shucm of thr earth type terrible awful should be fuckiny killed kind of person

I'm a horribl3 person

I really really should do it I know it would be better in the long run I just feel so guilty

I can't stop fucking thinking about it I can't stop

feeling so fucking selfish and guilty but idk what else to do I really don't know what else to do

it's fine it's fine it'll all be okay soon

god

feeling so fucking guilty and I've barely done anything yet god

I don't want to fucking do this anymore idk

they need to make a method tha6d like 100% none of this fuckikg 73% or whatever

i was just thinking about it

feeling fucking insane might od a little hehe

anyways

absolutely sick and twisted that I can't end my own life without doing what I did during it , hurting people!

google pl3ase how the fuck do I kill myself without hurting other people

these cigs r helping so much but now I feel guilty for buying them lmao I can't fucking win

I think I should cut ties with every single person who cares about me and then just lay down and die

chain smoking in a parking lot blasting la dispute because I'm a horrible person

I really should either kill myself huh