Glad to hear it's not something worse, tho I know a UTI can still definitely be rough to deal with.

Hope I get to hear more from you soon <3

The bimbofication begins!

(More goals have been reached, but it'll take a bit to draw them all)

#art #Ash #bimbofication

I'll probably get involved in the broader community again when leftist sexual politics move past "that kink is innately evil even if you don't actually act on it in any way that hurts anyone".

So, y'know, let me know when that happens. : >

Still pretty unlikely to actually post here (or on any other social media) much any time soon.

Idk, I guess if anyone cares enough to want to get in touch with me, feel free to DM me and maybe we can get talking on Discord or something.

The other person in the house responsible for half the rent is an abusive prick who probably isn't going to be able to pay this month, so I'm gonna be extremely short this month.

I hate asking for help but I don't know what else I'm going to do

#transcrowdfund #mutualaid

It's time to pay rent once again and once again it's gonna leave me pretty broke until next paycheck.

It's not an emergency by any means, but if you'd like to help a trans girl afford groceries this pride month I'd greatly appreciate it 💕🏳️‍⚧️

#art #Ash #AshesTheClown

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Reactivated, idk how active I'll be, especially if I'm exposed to a bunch of intra-community drama bullshit.

Even when the person being gone after actually sucks, it's so tiring.

Doesn't help that, for a little while, this was a place where I mostly felt safe and could come to unwind, when I was feeling like dogshit in very similar ways to this.

That's just how ever queer community space goes, eventually, I guess.

I'm talking about people openly engaging with each other in a sexual/horny manner in publicly-accessible threads on this website. Whichever that is.

I think that is ok and even good.

Other people think that is Bad and somehow caused all the sexual abuse.

Also it's not about the idea of someone being pressured into sexuality: That happens plenty and sucks. There are times when it happened on this site. But it... Isn't happening *just* when people are openly sexual with each other and someone else feels left out.

It turns out it is really hard to do this when it's 5am and your sleep cycle is fucked and you're lonely and

*Sigh*

I will directly say that I am not talking about anyone directly involved with the Kairi thing, as far as I can tell. I'm talking about people posting about those posts on like a third-order level who are saying "Actually it being ok to be openly sexual here caused this"

Ah, ok

Yeah then

I think my point is just "Well, all the popular people on BSky are horny, and I wanted to be popular too, so I pretended to be horny" is not coercion.

I mean, it sounded to *me* like "decided". I feel like I'm not sure what "coursed" is short for here.

Also I am not sure what the difference between "sexual" and "horny" is in this context.

I will directly say that I am not talking about anyone directly involved with the Kairi thing, as far as I can tell. I'm talking about people posting about those posts on like a third-order level who are saying "Actually it being ok to be openly sexual here caused this"

I have no intention of being sneaky.

I think the bad thing Kairi did was bad. I don't even particularly like Kairi, and had her muted for a while before any of this happened.

I'm not calling anyone a liar (And am very specifically not naming a name. If you don't think this applies to someone, it's probably not who I'm talking about).

I am talking about people who said that they did the thing I said. I can't call someone a liar if I'm just... rephrasing what they said.

I am *trying* to

Like idk I feel like I'm going insane with some of the shit people post.

Not blaming victims is great, but when someone is literally saying "I wasn't comfortable being horny, but I decided to be anyway so I could be popular and that is someone else's fault" that

*Fuck*

If nobody every has to see it, it's not actually happening!

Idfk. This place is obviously unhealthy for me now, still. Leaving for a while longer, at least as much as I'm able to make myself leave (This is a lot of why it's an unhealthy place for me).

If y'all wanna message me, I will reply when I can.

Did I feel Pressured to play board games? I mean... Kind of, I guess? I wished they weren't so incredibly boring to me, so I could make more friends. But I looked at myself, went "I guess I just have to find the folks who want something else", and moved on.

Like, for some reason the entire queer community in Colorado seemed to revolve around board games as ice breakers, and I simply had no interest in that kind of thing. Magic? Sure. Specific Contained Experience Boxes About Being Sherlocke Holmes Or Whatever? Nah.

I complained, but it wasn't Moral.

I mean, unless I'm having an active mental breakdown, but I don't expect anyone else's morality, much less... The entire queer community's morality, to revolve around what makes me feel bad.

Like idk, I feel *very* constantly alienated in all queer spaces for a variety of reasons. The only one I actually call a bad thing is the religion/superstion/whatever gray area astrology is in stuff, because I think that's bad in other ways and that I can justify that.

But actually it is only bad if it is sex, for some reason. Something something predators something, who will only be able to do bad things if they can flirt openly on the internet. For some reason.

Hey sorry, we can't publicly talk about liking anime, poker, video games, croquet, philosophy, camping, dogs...

Y'know, one of those might become really popular and a bunch of people might all start bonding over it in a way that makes other people feel left out and therefore Pressured to Engage!