Companies who change 1 month rolling contracts to 12 month rolling contracts and state that you agree to the new terms and conditions just because you’ve continued to pay the direct debit you initially agreed to before the change, ARE SO PREDATORY!!!!! 😡😡😡😡
QoL = 👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻
I am tired. I am in pain. I need a break.
Wisdom tooth extraction was attempted coz it looked sort of close to the nerve, so was more of a ‘well if this doesn’t help, we need to send you to a specialist) sort of thing.
Meanwhile… neuro said they wanted to see me in 3 months and we’re nearly there and no appointment letter yet. *sigh*
If it’s the second, brain surgery already on the cards to try to aid the constantly rising CSF in skull… (in one area)
But reading there’s also chances it might need to be in another area too. That has a 66% recurrence rate though. 🫠
Well… wisdom tooth extraction attempt 1 swelling is down (which is good) but the facial nerve pain has returned, likely coz it’s not fully out yet at least…
If the tooth isn’t the one that’s caused the pain, I also found a link with my CSF pressure being something that could have triggered it too.
Have they been helpful for you?
Currently I’m trying to keep to as many whole food ingredients as possible as have noticed other issues from the stuff they like to add everywhere these days!!
Good shout!! Need to ask the neurologist if there are any neck stretches that are okay. - I have too much fluid in my skull, so it’s all being a bit extra complicated.
Thank you!!!! Will look into these!
It’s the nerves in my face so I’m not sure I can lift with that hehe! The stretching atm seems to trigger it sometimes as even small movements are making things angry. It’s so weird but really painful. Think it could be the trigeminal nerve from pain location.
Okay, but does anybody have any tips on how to concentrate if your nerves are screaming? Sometimes it gives me a few minutes of relief with some deep tissue massage, and then starts again.
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Not terminal, which is fantastic.
But it just feels like my very little tolerance window is getting smaller and smaller, and the traditional fixes make me worse.
It’s not even easy to fix. Chances are I might need a stunt in my brain.
GP has referred me to haem as well because my blood isn’t doing the oxygen transportation thing…
Meanwhile, my back up body systems are essentially in debt and have been for so long, that I’m just on reserve.
But it wasn’t possible to take it all. So I’m now waiting for them to try again at a place with the correct equipment for some bone removal. Whilst the swelling and pain goes down from the first attempt.
I am strong willed. I am stubborn, but boy is this current state breaking me.
And it’s not even decent movement… it’s just basic movement. :/
And then my facial nerves started to throw extreme pain at me when I was eating and breathing, so dentist said maybe a wisdom tooth extraction might help…
And yet… I’m here, with the WILL of what I once was. An athlete.
But current health means even the littlest (I mean less than 10 mins) worth of movement means it’s making me crash with post exersional malaise (PEM). Which makes things REALLY hard to get out of this doom loop.
Mix with it the combination that the neurologist told me of my autonomic system management making my CSF fluid levels too high… I can see why he said things are ‘unfortunate’.
I am
S T R U G G L I N G
Did some reading and apparently my set of conditions can mirror end stage heart failure despite my organs appearing okay. Cool cool.
Things aren’t working at the cellular level so for example, my blood isn’t transporting enough oxygen, which makes them starved. Cool. 🫠
‘like trying to run a marathon on a broken leg while the building is on fire.’ - medical quote of the day.
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‘He’s got his pecker up’ - Never thought I’d hear that on the news!!! HAHA! Pretty accurate though, maybe… 🤣🍊
Notification from Facebook that reads: ‘You have new top fans. Mention them to show your appreciation with a GenAI image.’
Ai not smart enough to know my page is an artist page and that I’ve posted against the use of GenAi though… 👀🤣
Hello #PortfolioDay!
I make 3d environments! ✨️
Portfolio: artstation.com/farrukh
a faun with pink hair and white dappled freckles wearing a white and green Grecian dress. Between her antlers is a crescent moon while branches and stars surround her
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Ych commission for @elizabethbriars.bsky.social
#myart #art #artsky #illustration #faun #satyr
Hopefully next year will be a bit better maybe. 🤷🏻♀️
LOL! But still… *sigh*. I am not a machine. I cannot ‘compete’ with the GenAi in the world that is negatively affecting every artist, so this is me. Just a little human who still hand paints stuff with a brain and a heart; pushing against the current that is heading towards a very steep waterfall.
I’d like to be less harsh on myself, really. Every single part of me goes ‘YOU SHOULD JUST PUSH THROUGH EVERYTHING, WHY AREN’T YOU MANAGING?!’, but realistically, this WAS how little was managed even with the push. The body really lets you know when things are too much.
And I have some absolutely amazing people who willingly deal with my crap too. ❤️
(The management of other stuff is generally contraindicated when it comes to trying to manage the fluid…) I feel extremely weak and disappointed in myself overall; my world feels like it’s getting smaller and smaller, but looking back, at least there’s been enough to cover this little meme LOL!
