My mom has had 2 surgeries the past 2 months and maybe chemo, my sister is moving across the country tomorrow. My dog has surgery tomorrow for a mass and biopsy to see if it's cncer. I'm so stressed, tired, broke, and depressed. I feel so alone. I feel like I'm crashing
Like responding to posts is the easiest way for me to not commit to a full conversation cuz I suck at those unless it's about something I enjoy LOL I will not DM someone to chat unless I'm rly close to them or its urgent... like it's so personal if that makes sense ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ LOL
I'm putting in more effort on commenting on mutuals and friends posts but it's so hard not to think I'm being annoying or pushy. ๐ญ I've been reserved my entire life. Never reached out to people I wanted to be friends with. Hopefully I'm not coming off as annoying aaaaah
Thinking about the hwei cosplayer I saw at fanime... I flew outta my seat when I saw them LOOOL. Then chatting about league publically.. (this is a sin)
There was no anaxa stuff at fanime and I'm trying to find catalogs for AX and no one has a catalog yet :((( urrrghhhh
I'm still too scared to post this anywhere else though ๐
Yeah! Sorry for the late response. If you haven't found them I'm at the artist alley booth 102
Super anxiety about all my merch and con stuff being delivered the day before con.. like please don't get delayed anymore I'm going to throw up ๐
Only got one more in me before fanime and it'll be Phainon probably... wish I could do mydei too but I struggle with him too much
I haven't let posting art publicly bother me for the past year, yeet and leave. But I'm starting to feel the anxiety and worthlessness again why ๐ซ
Fixed cuz his ass would NOT write Anaxa... Professor my brain is slow ๐
I didn't think I'd struggle with pc so much considering all I can draw are portraits cuz my knowledge of anatomy sucks but I'm still struggling ๐ญ๐ญ maybe I'm tunnel visioning.. I'll look again in when I wake up
I just want to mindlessly drag my pen across my tablet without looking up and seeing its 6am
I just want one character to exist without the other sometimes man.
I dislike it when a ship becomes so popular that it just becomes like A+B always have somehow fit the other into a convo. Like... ex. ratio in the HSR concert, he's just yapping about stuff, personality etc but he just HAS to mention aven at the tail end, like why. ๐ญ
Then I did the rest of the 3.2 story and yeah they really weren't lying when they said it was a bittersweet story. I'm so sad now.
I was drinking at dinner and got home decided to just throw the rest of my pulls. I started screaming, all my friends started yelling. Then my heart was beating so fast I got nauseous I almost threw up from being too excited ๐ญ๐ญ
Cleaning is so therapeutic. I hate the thought of it, and I hate being tired when I'm done. But while doing it you focus so hard you forget everything else. LOL then seeing everything so clean afterwards is so refreshing
They made a whole big deal about not being able to change the keyring too cuz it'd affect the printing alignment so I was like fine... then they sent me the most unaligned printing ever ๐
chat do these look the same (hint: NO)
I'm gunna cry, they made the sample perfect, then fucked up my shit and sent it to me after I ordered production.
Like, I gotta be missing a quest or character story cuz I'm just left so disappointed ๐
I feel like they had good development planned for Vivian and Hugo cuz I can see it in some of the dialogue but most was just skimmed over or rushed so they can get the version over with. They keep yapping about how they're family but I didn't see it at all. They had no relationship.
Im still tweaking out about this hours later cuz ik Vivi can see death, so you can assume she didn't have a premonition of hugo dying so she "knows" but it wasn't even told well in the story. They just made it seem like she was like, well maybe he not dead, and she didn't really care.
Yall I was crashing out. I'm so unhappy about the recent ZZZ story ๐ญ
Probably insane behavior but I have a very good memory and will quite literally hold a grudge for a millennium over the smallest interactions ๐
Why is this fake btch still my profile pic tho.
It really be a full time job and just draw what I like after April. I'm so over merch grinding and being broke ๐ Maybe I can finally get back to art trades and OCs
Actually he has a responsibility to bury his shit in his litter box and he doesn't do that sometimes ๐๐
