i’m going to lose it

by the end of the day i am so incredibly drained that i want to die. i know i should talk to my gp etc but i just cannot force myself to want to. i don’t want solutions or more appointments that i forget to schedule, i just want to not be controlled by my own brain anymore.

he has to have 2 removed minimum and 6 caps under GA. he inherited my chalk teeth

i’m going to fucking vomit

YES of course ! i love doing curly cuts now

as if my day wasn't already ruined. i just found my childhood home pop up as a rental, completely destroyed. mum spent years renovating and it looks like it should be condemned now.

4 units to go until i am a fully qualified hairdresser !!!!!!!!!! ✂️🎨💇🏻‍♀️

anyway, writing it down has helped calm my brain a little. it’s not insurmountable and we are trying to get through it. there’s just no instant gratification in paying off debt and setting financial goals

baby #2 is due in july, and with my body falling apart idk how much longer i will be able to work in salon. i’m hustling to get qualified so i can at least try and do hair on the side while i’m on parental leave

i’ve paid off afterpay which is huge !! i’ve got $900 saved for moving !! we have a plan to sell off some old tech/mtg/collectables to hopefully at least get the ball rolling

i truly have just not tried hard enough to be frugal/change my habits and it’s biting us in the ass

my greatest wish rn is for $10k to fall into my lap so i can pay off all my bnpl + cc debt, move out of this $650pw rental, and start fresh

shaky mental health + lack of impulse control is an absolute banger combo for getting yourself into debt you can’t claw out of

theo is lining his crystal collection on my leg and telling me they’re gonna fix me

Sisyphus but every day he unsubscribes from marketing and promotion emails.

"Harry Potter is important to me, it was part of my childhood"
That's fine, I now associate you with a dirty TERF transphobe and you're fucking dead to me, you dud cunt.
Grow a backbone (and a personality).

No ethical consumption under capitalism means "I will have to get the medications I need from a terrible Big Pharma company," it does not mean "I have to watch my crummy wizard show or my tummy horts."

hobbyless behaviour is my new favourite

absolutely correct

my son just brought me the scholastic catalogue and told me we needed to buy all of the books

left image: pixelated image of a man in a shower from 'shower with your dad simulator 2015' right image: isiah mustafa from 'old spice' tv commercials on the beach under a shower wearing a towel

wonderful news everyone i have enabled dlss 5 on 'shower with your dad simulator 2015'

i truly just want to crawl into a hole

Adam Baldwin was literally *the* guy who named GamerGate and made it go viral. It was just some loser 4chan/incel YouTuber shit before then. They spammed him to get his attention because they knew he’s also a psycho loser and they wanted to make it go viral, and he did it. And it worked.

A lot of people are mad about this and calling it 'self interested' and I dunno man if the point of activism isn't to get people to change their minds what are we doing here?

he just asked his dad to make a bouquet with him out of pipecleaners

mackenzie was one of my “see you at the next convention !” friends, but he was a genuine delight to cross paths with x

amen

watching my son beat up my partner with cardboard tubes and wondering how i am going to survive another boy

ooh excellent !! it’s royal bride’s heartbroken exile, i’ll look in the morning cause i’m scrolling in bed lol

i’m hooked on this chinese period drama that i’m watching out of order through 18 minute ads on instagram because i refuse to download their app