Gonna tweet this to pin it to my profile.

Please do not engage in politics and global current events with me as my anxiety is extremely vulnerable to it at this moment. Thanks.

Ooop. I forgot to update this. I broke sobriety on 4/20 and returned to addiction 😂 Had to take a break again so I’m on day 8 currently. Let’s see how long that lasts. Hahah

Lmao this week has been anxiety 2.0 💀😭

Show I must because if not I must

It feels uncomfortable being alone in my room at this hour but, to ease any worries, I am safe with my thoughts. I just don’t feel my normal right now. Gonna watch a bit of anime before going to sleep though.

I hate living with anxiety :(

2 week update and cravings no more. Being sober has felt great. :)

Anyway, excited for my first day at my new job ^_^

The first one ended up being really close so I literally tried to rush myself to catch it and he cancelled on me. The second one did not even hit the “I’ve arrived” notification and didn’t even give me a few seconds to reach him before he canceled. I was literally steps away. So fucking annoyed.

Uber drivers are quite an interesting breed. I understand having to be outside by the moment that they arrive, but please give me 1-2 minutes to get to you.

What amazing drag tonight. Can’t believe I spent $70 in tipping drag queens via Venmo 🫣 pls don’t judge me. April is gonna be the start of great months

Im currently working a night shift. This will be my final ever one though. I’ve told all my closest people but for here, I’m super looking forward to starting earning a 88k-90k salary. Killed my interview earlier this week and hoping for the 90k

Watching drag race and I’m turnt on a triple whiskey mule and my delulu era be like “I can do a roasted I want to do a risstÑ” and stuff

Gave up weed, munchies (e.g., chips), & soda for lent. Def need the weed break. However….im craving 🥲

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I took the bus from Daly City to Palo alto yesterday. It blows my mind how far I can travel with one bus line.

Note to self: I finally watched Sonic 3!

I wonder if I can get a replacement phone bc mine is the one that has problems 😭😭

Bruh why do I gotta join my fam and I walk in to a conversation involving politics? 😭😂

Im such a fat ass. I really ate an Ike’s sandwich and then some kfc a bit after 💀

Despite how messed up our world is right now, I am having/have had a great birthday right now. I’ve allowed a bit of doomscrolling but didn’t allow it to bother me. It’s difficult to explain but it’s been a really great day for me and it feels special.

Alas, I continue the trend of feeling a little too hopeful for a job offer bc of how well it went and despite the manifested energy I didn’t get it. It’s okay tho. The one thing that disappointed me was the guy who interviewed me saying that I would hear back pretty soon. Not cool.

Ugh can the employer notify me whether they’re gonna give me the position or not? 😭

This counselor was telling me that he feels guilty when he calls out yet here I am willingly choosing to call out 🤭. I’m also just burnt with working in this niche in the field. Also gambling on hoping to expect good news this week

Oh and I walked like at least 2-2.5 miles today too. Currently working on laundry. Those are the goals I set for today

I managed to limit my social media use to a minimum today and definitely did not open TikTok as well. A big win in the sense of mental health but the anxiety still won anyway so I self medicated 😅. Rumination still there but at least numb maybe? lol watching One Piece helps tho

Good news: my anxiety from yesterday has gone down
Bad news: i still have lingering anxiety

I worry for myself but at least I will be employed soon hopefully

Wowzers. Managed a whole overnight shift without caffeine