If I had a normal sleep schedule I’d be unstoppable… ⚰️

I really hope these new meds I was switched to work well enough because I really like not having to inject a needle into myself to function. ⚰️

Still wish I had drank that energy drink lol

Me in another life. ⚰️

A snippet of a digital journal. Black with white text that reads: “I wonder if it's how others in the real world see me when I'm someone else. An amalgamation of different attributes displaying on the same body. Not that anyone else really knows because the only ones who did left me. I wonder if when others did know if it felt this much like seeing someone but not recognizing them. It's as if I'm seeing a remade version of a movie I grew up with. “

Our host in 2018 (not our host now, 👋 that’s me and 🤠) wrote this in our journal and I just find it really beautiful (even though the system was going through a shit time). ⚰️

Depression paralysis has me in its grip. 🥺⚰️

Debt will be what kills me. ⚰️

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⚰️: I wish I had someone to go see Wuthering Heights with me. 😔
🧷: I’ll go with you.
⚰️: I know you wanna see it too but I’d still have to ~physically~ go alone….
🧷: Yes, but you’re never truly alone. So we can see it together if you want. I can front so you’re not uncomfortable.
⚰️:

Whoever designed the remote to this heated blanket with a bright ass light on it…thanks for making it hard for me to sleep. You’re dumb and I hate you. ⚰️

Oof. 🤣

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Stardew Valley gave me incredibly unrealistic relationship expectations because no matter what he does 🧷 could never live up to my artistic goddess of a wife 💕 ⚰️

@ the tteokbokki I had for dinner today ⚰️

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🤠 and I arguing like siblings in front of his actual sibling will forever be funny to me

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Looks like someone is going to have to stay home and save money again… how horrible. 🌼

The gravity of silence.

#monoprint acrylic on paper.

#art #printmaking #figurativeart

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Hope you all sleep well tonight. Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day. 🌼

I cleaned half the room and it looks so much better! I still have a bunch to do but it’s clean enough. I also took apart and fixed the fan, hung up a BMTH poster 🤠 bought a few weeks ago, and setup the daily calendar we got for Christmas. 😁 I’m so cool. ⚰️

I need to finish this tonight. I have an early shift tomorrow so I cannot work on it then 😭 ⚰️

Cleaning is so hard for me cause I get distracted by absolutely everything gahhhhhhh ⚰️

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I am pretty sure it was 🦇 that locked us out of the car yesterday btw 🤣 ⚰️

Sorry about the like switching tenses its so hard to write from a I wasn’t here during this particular part of our life but it still happened to the system as a whole so I don’t know how to tense it proper standpoint lol 😂 ⚰️

We dated this ex 8 years ago so a LOT of healing and therapy have gone down. I don’t want anyone to think this like happened over night. I’m just cleaning our room for…reasons 😏…and came across the pile of sketchbooks at the bottom of the closet. I’m surprised we still have them. ⚰️

So like on one hand I hate this ex and the bullshit she helped fuel but also it’s unfair to hate her because clearly shit was going down I am still unaware of if I’m finding journal/art of her’s like this. But not encouraging help while encouraging unsafe delusions…is still very toxic... ⚰️

But also this particular ex really fed into the delusions that can so easily come with this disorder because she had the system fully convinced they were an endo system for YEARS. Like even went so far as to encourage BS stories and shit. Obviously we aren’t, therapy helped with that. ⚰️

Obviously you can’t always control who fronts but there needs to be safety for those around you if someone is this unhinged you need professional help. I knew 🧷 was bad, I have access to some memories, but clearly missed some crucial information. I need to have a conversation with him now. 😮‍💨 ⚰️

We should have been admitted right then and there. I cannot believe nobody pushed for that. I’m honestly flabbergasted. Please advocate for your safety, your health, and the safety and heath of your loved ones every day. ⚰️

Like if you are threatening bodily harm to yourself and others you should not be fronting and I am so glad we are all collectively better than this now. I wasn’t here yet but this would not have flown under my watch… I feel so bad it got this bad for everyone involved 😢 Therapy saves. ⚰️

Ew I was cleaning and I found art journal style that was done by one of our exs & its from before 🧷 was a functional human & I wanna kick his ass so badly. This is awful, what the fuck. Ughhhh just when I thought I knew the whole story I uncover bullshit that I have to deal with now. ⚰️

Mood 24:7 ⚰️

I just fucking cackled in the middle of the grocery store reading this. Thanks guys 🤣 ⚰️