im so mean and so pathetic
my friend is going through something and im fuckinh jealous because my boyfriend is helping them but he never helped me like that and im so tired and hurt and sad but nobody CARES

time to lose weight until my boyfriend gets concerned again!!

i love lying
oh yeah im sober
yeah im clean
yeah i stopped smoking
nah caffeine is just cuz ive been having some late nights
yeah ive been getting healthy actually

im
probably going to start tracking calories in here or a notes app bc i cant stick to apps for some reason

okay we r so back

day 1;
403/500

locking in; an accountability thread

nobody who fully knows my trauma will ever see me as human

i hate myself so fucking bad i died in that bed in that cafe on that couch in that bathroom in that house in his hands theres nothing in me that remains he shouldve fucking killed me

forcing myself to ignore my survival instincts until i slowly erase them because thats a normal thing to want and need

7.8.2025
max. 850
ate: 366

6.8.2025
max. 900
ate: 943

5.8.2025
max. 700
ate: 565

4.8.2025
max. 850
ate: 791

3.8.2025
max. 700
ate: 1519
i hate myself

2.8.2025
max. 1000
ate: 805

1.8.2025
max. 900
ate: 629

31.7.2025
max. 800
ate: 786

i am so stupid yall
i was going based off of the old diet bc i forgot to change my wallpaper
oh well!!
thankfully i was still within the bounds of this diet but still
i am so stupid
the brainfog got me yall
anyways

Back up account for @llawfully.bsky.social in case I get nuked <3

fast ended!!

// bodycheck

still so fucking fat, jesus CHRIST

Accountability thread <333

ive had lile 0 appetite all day
this fast wasnt even tough
like deadass
0 appetite
i drank tea
i rhink it helped that i was walking around all day w my friend who also ddinr get food so i wasnr tempted

30.7.2025
FAST

couldnt fast yesterfay so im fasting today <33

29.7.2025
FAST
ate: 624 :((
❌❌❌

28.7.2025
max. 550
ate: 252

vibezz

i cant get myself to actually write stories so ive been writing letters about how i feel and i feel SICK
i hate being in touch w my emotions
i just like being numb
this was a stupid idea