maybe some of what i can remember sometime

well i'm definitely not as hard as you, i got a lot of stuff left to try. not for lack of wanting lol

some of y'all might not even survive the stories lol

one of the best parts of having had a mentor who'd been in the bdsm scene since the 80's and knew lots of notable folks on a first name basis was hearing enough stories that i now know better than to ever call myself or my kinks "hard" or whatever lmao it's healthy to get humbled by some perspective

there were other times where i absolutely felt other parallel processes in my brain get shut off so i could keep going but i can't think of a single one of them right now. fucking love this shit.

yeah that's hell

i can imagine. for me i can be really chatty with the right people but if i'm on a call i can't get shit done. so i have to pick and choose. it fucking sucks.

i genuinely feel like i have quantifiable brain damage from the burnout and i am gonna be going right back into healthcare in a few months here.

it's a miracle i was able to take any time off at all tbh

this happened like a switch flipping last year. my brain decided it had to aggressively prune shit bc burnout. this is something i have distinctly felt across the years. i have become narrower, cutting dead weight again and again until i have to cut live weight. like inventory management but neurons

i can't write an RP post when i'm in the middle of a voice call unless i hard tune-out what everyone else is saying. sometimes when i see a string of text and start processing it i effectively stop hearing language.

a network of canadian doctors including some from mcgill were running mkuktra protocols on patients into at least the 1980s, and instead of asking some real obvious questions about follow-on funding, i just want to point out that they were still getting paid to do malpractice. this is voluntary.

just ragequit warframe in the middle of a burgeoning panic attack because quinn was talking fucking nonstop in a mission i otherwise had in hand (albeit barely) and it felt like someone reaching into my brain and ripping it in half

one of the coolest things about burnout is how there was a definite point where i stopped being able to process speech at the same time as doing many other things. the capability has not returned and it probably won't and in some cases and situations it's a significant fucking hindrance

mcgill university, famously cooperative with the us government on its various projects, including mk fucking ultra

cw abuse / beating / piss

crops from set of commissions i got from youremystump on tumblr ☺️♥️

When you have a hammer for a head, everything around you is a nail. Here's another creature design for the world of BRUTAL that I'm creating.
#Brutalism #Horror #Creature_Art

Researchers in Japan Discover Medicine Capable of Regrowing Third Set of Teeth for Humans Scientists are working on a clinical trial of the medication and hope to have it ready for general use in 2030 By Stan Goff, Senior Content Editor Researchers in Japan have been developing a medicatio...

Soon, we'll all be growing our own new teeth instead of repairing our old ones or implanting replacements:

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In 1933, the nation's wealthiest people (including George HW Bush's grandfather) conspired to overthrow the government and install a fascist dictator who would reverse the New Deal and return the US to the gold standard. FDR swept it under the rug in return for the conspirators' compliance.

Business Plot - Wikipedia

We'll never know for sure, but the millionaires accused of being part of the plot got real quiet about politics once the congressional hearing petered out for no obvious reason

Hey man, we cool? I just noticed that when I look at you the reticle turns red.

you read coquette bc i posted a girl thinking about sexual pudding tf syke youre going to read a hundred thousand words of monologues about living in the neoliberal hellscape forever war

jesus christ

as if we needed another reason

it’s a great day for transphobes to eat shit

ffffffuck yesssssss

bite risk domme 🤤

muzzle that felt a little too “big dog” for my little puppy and new binder combo 🥴😵‍💫

VERY COOL PERSON: It's four-twenty, you know what that means?

ME: Hell yeah! [starts shoving blackbirds into a pie]

anything can be sex if it activates your fight or flight response

Yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

genuinely sick