Omad but i dont have access to the calories

Tips on dealing with brain fog? Besides energy drinks, they give me panic attacks 😭

Fall break is nov 26-30, where I'll be home with my family. I'll have to wear baggy clothes and eat as normal as possible or they'll force me back into inpatient. I wanna get to 115-118 by then so I can hopefully not feel awful after gaining from it

Ended Oct at 120.3 which is INSANE for me given that i started Oct at 128-129

Stopping after 1200cals today bc its my scheduled metabolism day. Except my mom just told me she's taking me out for breakfast tomorrow. So... laxes it is i guess 😔

Need to purge so badly but theres a campus security guard on patrol near the bathrooms tonight and also istg the mens room floor in my dorm is always covered in piss. I've only been purging with laxes this semester but food is making me so nauseous now

Bottom row is months fyi, ik it's a weird graph 😭

Well i think October has been pretty productive to say the least 💀

The progress has been slower than *I'd* like, but its actually probably healthier to do it this way so no one gets suspicious and i don't destroy my metabolism again 💀

Made myself lose 8lbs in a month so hopefully i can keep on this roll

So i went into treatment, they made me gain 15lbs. I was in recovery for abt three months but backkkkkkk 🤪👈

Going into treatment tomorrow for a few weeks. Might delete this account afterwards.

Hit 118 then immediately binged two days back up to almost 120.
Life would be cool if I wasn't a fatass

Ate 900-1000 (had a few bites of cake that I don't know the cals of) while burning off 800 cals at work :)

Tomorrow is "no scale Saturday" which was homework by my therapist, but I broke up with her today after saying some HEINOUS SHIT to me so fuck that I'm weighing myself anyways

Raaaa 119.1 today :))

That goes wild 😭

Intake today :) (425)

Begging on my hands and knees to get even smaller
Left: 120 (today), Right: 132 (mid-march)

Same, I'm cutting back on them atm and hopefully will stop all together. They make my cravings and hunger so much more noticeable

Therapist and I compromised, so I can only weigh myself once a day and I can't at all on weekends.

Idk about the cals but it looks incredible omg

Forgot to take a pic but I had a Wawa snack wrap with chicken, cheese, and lettuce (230 cals) and a black coffee. Currently at 370 cals today and at work now. I'm gonna burn about 300 cals there, plus 200 total on my walk to-and-from work :)
That leaves some time for a treat after work

Djfjdnnxskks you're good 😭

They're cotton candy grapes that I cut, similar to regular grapes but lighter colored, squishier, and kinda thicker skin and honestly I think I like them less 💀

Also had seaweed (20 cals) but forgot to take a pic

Ofc! Their coffee syrups are really good too

Snack time before work :)
(70 cals)

Jordan's Skinny dark chocolate syrup really comes in clutch for me with that 😭😭

Strawberries and Splenda for breakfast/lunch <3 (50 cals)