Literally my daughter 😭🫠😫 💕💕💕💕💕💕

New residents:

Elise’s new face + cornxan alts

Xander and horse

It’s just AHH i wish i didn’t have depression and i know it’s my brain, it’s not what i want, like I have a choice, it’s the cards i was dealt I just feel so much less because I feel so much like this so much of the time. Today is just a lower day I think.

I hope to turn it around though.

The break room either makes me super motivated and I get a spark of energy or it makes all the bad thoughts come back all at once there little in between.

It’s okay.

I hate hate hate vocalizing it but it’s been eating me for months, persisting, it’s not what I want in my relationship with art.

Feeling low. An artist that doesn’t do art. I really want to draw more. I want to feel better and I want to feel confident again and any sort of value in what I do but it’s been very hard guys. It hurts because I know I love it, it’s healed me so much, it brings me so much joy. I want it back.

Digital illustration of Fire Emblem Fates Corrin and Xander. They are dressed in Vallite attire. Xander lays his head on Corrin’s lap while she runs her fingers through his hair. A halo adorns Corrin’s head. All is well and serene for our favorite pair of lovebirds.

Day 1: Valla 💙🏔️

#corrianderweek2025 ✨

My take on the Joe Bowler redraw trend.

Day 3: Respite

#corrianderweek2025 #fefates

Let's take on the world. accompanied by drawing of leo and takumi sitting and gazing into each other's eyes surrounded by greenery.

Takumi says "I'm surprised you decided to make a trip out to central hoshido. For leisure?" Leo yawns then replies "If I'm being forced to take a break, I'll take the opportunity to learn about Hoshido. It'd help my own work." Takumi looks unimpressed and says "How noble. But I saw the itinerary"

sample pages for my #leokumi comic Let's Take On The World (1/3)

In lighter news I got a haircut… bleach coming in due time.

But my immediate response is always I need to be better I need to fix this, I should be better by now… 😖😖😖😖😖

Cause it’s already so BIG even with me trying to keep it at bay.

😖😖😖

I am trying to get better at not repressing or trying to “combat” the sadness. Usually I try to make up for it and present myself with extra happiness because it feels so selfish(?) to let it known or drag others down because of my inner fight.

She wants me to sit in it more, not try to “fix” it.

It’s like no matter how much I wring myself dry of this hurt it keeps going and going even after a period where I think I’m getting better dealing with it all.

She tells me that she doesn’t mind reassuring me of my value every time we meet if it helps me and it’s so embarrassing but yes, it would!

Idk I scared my therapist into asking me to remind her what anti depressants I was on, the dosage, if I had any change in the suicidal ideation, to call her.

I felt silly not being “better” or “over it” by now.

She reassured me that it’s the body that keeps score and that the trauma needs release.

Sometimes I feel bad for “doing therapy wrong” or “not getting better”. It’s odd, but these past therapy sessions I’ve been opening up about fears that consume me lately- that have been left from past experiences and the same levels of distress come back, they come back like they never left.

women 🥹

constance wu deserves just as much praise as jlo got for her performance. they were both very good

I liked Hustlers… what a fun movie. Just women supporting women is always great to see… and the mother problems hit close to home and so it did make me feel a few things ugh

THIS much???

And by that I mean I want to add katseye to my island.

Part of me wants to keep adding more and more fates charas, the other part wants to get a bit silly.

She's so silly, my meow meow 🥺

the squad as of day 2.

Something goofy. Wanted to do a piece based on JC Leyendecker portrait sfule… should’ve made it Leon but I was feeling chrom 😂😂😂

drawing of leo and takumi sitting together, gazing into each other's eyes. takumi has an open book in his lap. they are surrounded by branches with multicolored leaves of green yellow blue, and hanging red fruit. there is a river in the distance.

the cover for my upcoming comic #leokumi

Many thoughts, head full

Yes!!! I wish I were a fly on the wall and had access to these soft intimate moments they share together 🥹🥹🥹

THEY DO!!! THEY DO!!! 😭🙂‍↕️💕💕💕 This was one of my first cornder fanarts ever. One day I’ll touch it up again hehe. No one take me out of the sauce ever.