Brain chemicals regulating while trying to teach teenagers math is sure one hell of a wild ride.

Honestly, my views. Like no tragedy is funny at all.

Those are my thoughts. You wouldn’t make fun of any other tragedy, why 9/11?

I get it’s “cool” to hate on America right now but people forget there’s real people here. And real people died in that tragedy.

Haha yeah. I feel like the people making the jokes I notice are young Gen Z and Gen Alpha which you know, I get it. But I’m seeing some of it creep to older Gen Z and I’m here like “if you make that joke around me, you’re clearly too young to be following me”

Sorry to people who followed me expecting “content”

You get a real person behind this account.

I can tell I don’t belong to a certain side of the internet when I see 9/11 jokes.

Like. Sorry y’all I was a teenager during that and i don’t find it funny at all. I have the darkest humor too.

My bipolar is acting up so baaaaaaad

I can barely teach because I am so snippy today and I feel bad.

I played Yakuza and I was explaining it to my boss and was so excited and I just got a weird look so i was just like “and yeah…” and shut down.

Okay yeah. I can officially confirm it was depression.

I “snapped” out of it while in the bathroom, which was dirty, and was like “bitch, you live like this?!” And cleaned up my bathroom before I left for work. 😂

playing some Pragmata before work was a correct call and is helping me to redirect some negative energy.

i have come to the conclusion that i don't hate my job.

i'm just depressed.

jfakl;dsfj;kslad

yesterday's observation didn't help and i know it was partially because it was a bad day to do an observation after the weekend of a local fair.

kids were so zoned out.

I COULD take a three day weekend and that would affect me least. I’d also get a three day weekend. I’ll see how my mental health holds up.

Sadly, I can’t find a good time to take a day off without actually affecting myself so gonna have to grin and bear it until Mid May when I suddenly get two long weekends in a row.

I have identified the bad feeling i am having. It is just burnout. Which is normal this time in the school year.

happy 420 lol🍃

Good lord, he's so hidden i had to LOOK UP HOW TO GET TO HIS ROUTE.

really putting emphasis on that 'secret' in 'secret route', huh?

"You have unlocked Uro's route!"

WHO THE FUCK IS URO, OTOME DAOSHI?

i've accepted it as that my boss tbh DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO TALK TO ME.

he has asked me about my gaming but i get embarrassed because lol i have been shamed by former friends for liking games.

tbh i won't suddenly be out of a job. it would actually take literal work and effort to let me go and i know it's just bad brain during a depressive streak.

considered looking for new jobs today, except that looking and applying for jobs actually takes effort. I'll just accept it's april depression and i just need to make it to mid-june....

I also noticed someone’s table was wrong and immediately knew what they did wrong and told them out to fix it.

So I mean. I was doing my part during the lesson and most kids were doing their part.

Normally he’s so much more engaged and likes to help the class.

Bossman just seemed disengaged or wasn’t paying attention. Or he was just recording with some program and decided to ai the notes. 😭😭😭

I think that’s what got to me.

Now that I’ve calmed down a bit maybe they weren’t so bad. They were asking how to set up equations and the boys I continually had to redirect did listen when I told them to and focused for 5 minutes.

One kiddo who is notorious for AI actually did the lesson without it.

So.

Idk.

All of my classes have been so out of it. So can only assume that’s what happened.

apollo justice: ace attorney is a 2026 period piece

I’m wondering if something happened over the weekend (there was the local fair) because all my classes have been out of it. I wonder if the fair just took it out of them and i totally forgot the fair happened.

Brb looking for a new job (I’m probably overreacting.)

I think my random seating chart worked against me todaaaaay.