Today is the birthday of a legend and the death of a legend and they both enriched my life and probably both have saved my life a thousand times over.

I went record shopping the day before record store day because and such. What a great time to buy a tears for fears

Spring in Seattle.
Watching the hummingbirds working the apple blossoms.
Heading towards Armageddon
like basic beauty of seasons and wings means nothing.

The hardest part of trying to get back into dating in my mid 40s is the same part that has always been hard.
It’s hard enough to find platonic people to discuss the Kabbalah connections within the work of Blake and how those influences translate to some of my favorite artists, let alone romantic.

Massive Attack / Tom Waits - Boots on the Ground YouTube video by Massive Attack

A perfect song for our decline-

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I was working on a poem about living with chronic depression and wanted to get a moment of levity in it but couldn’t find the right spot.
I wanted something like

I swallow feathers washed up in the gutter
Crying, “dear god, make me a bird”

Would have been big for the Gump heads!

Just deleted DoorDash and canceled my account. I love that these companies keep canceling themselves by being bootlickers.

Ticket locked!

My growing collection of Cure albums

Just another poem about my incredible mental health YouTube video by jeremy springsteed

Out here taking on another spike of doom so why not poem about it-

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It’s happening again

After 5 years of not dating I decided to try getting back out there. Signed up for hell, dating website. Marched with someone. Exchanged a few messages. They asked if I like the band Built To Spill and I said yes but prefer Modest Mouse. She said “uh huh, cool.” And unmatched.
Reasons to be single.

She just came in 🖤🖤🖤

Now that I can breathe again let me use my breath to once again scream that the World Cup should not be played in the United States.

The main reason I keep my FB account is to guilt my religious relatives.

Fucking sick of this will he won’t he bull shit.
Fucking remove. Goddamn imprison. Melt the cell key. Keep him alive and make him suffer for as long as possible.

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It’s wild how life continues to hold mysteries. Here’s a new one that I didn’t exactly expect, will we wake up tomorrow or will we be dust by dawn? Only an insane ass hole knows!

Thinking about Twin Peaks and if Bob is the evil that men do and when Coop comes back as the bad Coop from the lodge is it something related to Blake’s repeating line from his epic poem Jerusalem “They became what they beheld.”
Sun and crow bros.

Slaps myself on the top of my head
“This bad boy can fit so many nightmares into it!”

#tfw you’re a NIN fan and you know that only other pigs can understand your joy

Seems likely

A small thing that made my world a little less enjoyable is knowing that Michael Richards wore extra hair while playing Kramer.
He doesn’t really have that high of hair!

I bought myself flowers for my birthday

The best part of turning 46 is making a clever name for my birthday party.

ICE agents posing as TSA agents will definitely make international travelers coming for World Cup feel very comfortable and welcomed to our failed fascist state.

It’s the 10 year anniversary of Man In Tree.
Some deep and powerful Seattle lore.

At some point I lost all of my paintings and haven’t had the space to take it up again. I think I miss this guy the most.

Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross - The Walled Off Hotel (Full Album - 2017) YouTube video by Printouts

It’s amazing and beautiful but most importantly if you’re ready to cry about the most recent genocide watch/listen to the end-

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Still riding high from last night.