I need to get better at being alone 🤯

Im technically supposed to take 15mg abilify daily but I wanted to spice it up ✨

y'all can't tell anyone but I've secretly haven't taken my antipsychotics in like a week 🤐🫣

I only come here to vent lmao so no one follows me anymore ✌️

I hate having BPD I'm literally suspicious of EVERYTHING

anyway I'm doing okay right now I just wish I had more

I think I'm that toxic ex partner of yours ... wanna talk?

I give and I give and I give and I give and I get nothing I always get nothigng

I'm still sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm thinking about how much of a failure I am in general and I'm sad. They're avoiding me I know they are ...

am I really ok?...

I'm just scared I'm putting all my love into this and what if it's not reciprocated they tell me it is but what if it's a lie...

ofc they're fucking tired of you idiot why wouldn't they be ?? notice the patterns notice the signs you're BLIND

r they bored of me????....

I hate my mental illness

another fucking day I have to act like nothing Is fucking wrong

I wanna cut I WANNA CUT I WANNA CUT I WANNA CUT FUCK!!!!!!

NVM I decided can't trust no one fuck everyone

the signs the patterns the signs the patterns

ofc and I fucking asked and made things worse but I do fucking worry that you love them more than me why why do I worry so much

I hate that my brain is an asshole. "would they miss you this much?" I shouldn't ask. it's a bad time to ask.

and no one gives a fuck.

I'm tempted to message our ex again. Idek what I would want, I don't think there's anything left to resolve or talk about I just think I want someone to talk to

woa I'm a freak lmao

"I don't wanna be a bad influence" yes I do, I want to get you so drunk your defenses lower and I can do anything I want to you. "no pressure" I want to press the can against your lips and tilt it up for you when you can barely hold it yourself you're so intoxicated you can't see straight.

feederism + alcohol ...

I trust my friends I trust my friends I trust my friends

I knew their friends do not like me ): they don't wanna hang around me without my partner around that's who's mainly their friend I guess it makes sense it's just sad or whatever

NSFW//

I love threatening my partner 💜💜💜 sexually. I hope you're a little scared my darling of what I could do to you 💜💜

also I'd post my art but I'm afraid of getting hate <\3 lmao