⠀i’m almost never serious , and i’m always too serious . too deep , too shallow . too sensitive , too coldhearted .
i’m like a collection of paradoxes .

⠀yes , yes , yes , i do like you . i am afraid to write the stronger word .

⠀i’m becoming more a vessel of memories than a person .

⠀i wake up like a stray dog belonging to no one .
cold , cold , and the rain .
friendships outgrown or ruined .

⠀replace me with someone easier .

⠀wish i could turn you back into a stranger .

⠀ask me to stay , and i will . i will drop everything else if you ask me to stay .

⠀you’re my favorite friend , i’m sorry that i want you like a lover .

⠀they tell me , shaking their heads :
‘ you should be kinder . you’re somehow furious . ’
i used to be kind . it didn’t last long .

⠀why can’t you see me .ᐣ why can’t i stop needing you to see me .ᐣ

⠀i belonged to no one .
not the right daughter .
not the right sister .
not the right friend .
not the right lover .

⠀one day i am gonna grow wings .

⠀crawl inside this body— find me where i’m most ruined , love me there .

⠀i have a feeling you got everything you wanted , and you’re not wasting time stuck here like me .

⠀nothing i do is ever good enough .

⠀whatever our souls are made of , his and mine are the same .

⠀come on , don’t leave me , it can’t be that easy , babe .

⠀the songs on the radio are okay , but my taste in music is your face .

⠀you’re an angel , i’m a dog .

⠀don’t forget about me .

⠀you are not the villain . you once held my hand .

⠀how could a heart like yours ever love a heart like mine .ᐣ

⠀you’re just thinking it’s a small thing that happened .
the world ended when it happened to me .

⠀i’m afraid that you won’t need me anymore .

⠀nobody’s son , nobody’s daughter .

⠀scared of my own image .
scared of my own immaturity .
scared of my own ceiling .
scared i’ll die of uncertainty .

⠀but i always knew that in the end , no one was coming to save me .

⠀this is the story of how i died .

⠀i need a father .
i need a mother .
i need some older , wiser being to cry to .
i talk to god , but the sky is empty .

⠀please don’t be in love with someone else .