We’re so back 🔫👩‍🚀 we never left

Landed in Berlin HMU

The voice is something like “maybe you can do better”. It’s hard to pin where it comes from. Maybe it’s a hyperoptimizing tendency that leaves me perpetually dissatisfied. Maybe it’s a self love “you don’t have to settle” voice, unclear

And I was ready to do the whole thing with her. So why not now? Like I could pretty likely make it happen, yet I am choosing not to. Part of me is kicking myself for this

What fucks me up about splitting with the last woman I was seeing is that based on what I know, I’m pretty sure we could have a Viable Relationship - get married, have kids, live a good life. Compatibility is at least comparable to my last partner of 7 years

Bluesky

Realizing that I actively don’t want to be in the business of trying to change people, becoming more secure in myself and realizing I’m more interested in a partner with mutuality

Stuntin

If you see this, drop a pic of you as a kid

I am still the owner of doublesaturdays.com

I realize that i used to gravitate towards “quietish girl that I could show the world and open up”, less drawn to that now

May your shot be shot sweetly

Thanks tram ❤️

Madwoman

Physically, both IME, but more the latter
Psychologically… maybe also both?

It’s from a few weeks ago! Was a friend and the girl I was seeing, we sat to meditate for a bit, she mentioned grounding with the earth, and i was like “I’ll show you some grounding” lmao

16. Exploring and navigating the dating world after a 7 year relationship (many threads on Twitter)
17. Seeing to what degree i can create community and drop into preexisting ones
18. Trying to love myself and the people around me more fully and unconditionally

More recently
14. I’m in like 10+ crews (per microsolidarity, thanks rich), which have meaningfully helped me feel more connected and less lonely than ever in my life, despite often not being colocated with people close to me
15. Unblocked a ton of love with my min (see Twitter for many threads)

13. “” to build a life together with my (now ex) partner

But anyways quitting and traveling and fucking around and finding out has totally been the best thing I’ve ever done

12. “” to be “better” than others, to be “right” - “look at y’all dummies doing the normal thing I figured out a better way y’all should do it too”, the manifestation of a lack of inner knowing and orientation on external validation instilled throughout my upbringing (school, Chinese culture, etc)

11. “” out of integrity. When graduating high school I came up with an idea called college hopping (spending a semester at different universities) rather than going normally. I didn’t have the cajones to bet on myself then, and I wanted to prove that I could

8. I quit partially because I was dissatisfied with my social life in LA
9. “” because i was reacting to excessive responsibility i felt to my mom
10. “” because travel was the first thing I ever actively liked and subconsciously I knew that I wanted to develop a sense of what I want/like/care about

4. Ive always been the main person in my groups of friends bringing people together
5. I feel most at home living with friends and people I care about
6. Ive been to 50+ countries
7. Ive tasted a lot of lives for myself (I have a Twitter thread on this - is linking on bsky heathen behavior)

Hi I’m Johnson!

1. My family is from Taiwan but I was born and raised in the US, mostly Seattle
2. I did the standard path for 26 years (school, college, tech job)
3. Until I quit in 2019 and have been on the road seeing/doing/trying stuff since

Try https://agentgpt.reworkd.ai/

Oh shit!!

Gm from LA!! Jet lag woooo

How do you guys decide how much time/energy to put into online vs meatspace relationships/activities

In this economy???

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