100%

Dang. It's late and typos are like weeds.

Also, ot jad been hard to kmow.voscerally that I am not disordered like my parents were

My mom was my primary abuser. Including sexual.grooming for her friends. Dad was secondary.

And mom trained my siblings.

Lots of physical violence.

Sorry. Typos are my jam

I am very sorry you have this on your sholders.there is a gap between knowing the reality ve feeling it.

I will always be a hypervigilant bitch. And I will always feel.likwn8 am too dipla5ic and sweet whend3alimg with others

It's exhausting

Yes. That is why you are a Queen.

You made it.

Oh I totally get it

You are not flawed. You had a bad situation. You know that but helps.l maybe to hear it objectively.

I think it is okay of you cannot make sense of it.

What remains is that you are whole and good.b regardleß.

Your dad had issues from nutire, sure
But he also was misfired in his brain, I think.

Not all abused kids grow up to be abusers.

Most do not.

I have a friend that researches (clinical.psych) kids that are psyco/sociopaths.

They can be identified as young as toddlers. And, really, most are male

Unity and reunification is not the thing we want.

We want justice applied. Go after corruption like it is a bag of weed found in stop and frisk.

In fact, one of the first thing historians will point to is the failure of Reconstruction.

Forgiveness is overrated

And it is so mimd bending when excuses for.male violemce do not acknowledge that women deal with (waves hands) all this without being violent, mostly

Amen.

We know. We must not be less than we were meant to be.

Hugs if OK.

Our rage is our sanity

Ou4lr best is all we can do. But you get to be angry. You get to feel rage. It will not hurt you.

Oh. Now I definitely need t9 be your best friend. I love librarians. 8 worked for a bookeseller (a real old time one) as my first job b out of college

Anyway. Friend. You ate more than what you were told. You are a baddass.

You survived that shit. And you made a life for yourself.

You won.

I kept up with some cousins who were outside the framework. But even those relatuons have thinned.

I read a lot of books. And in them I find my center.i find the parameters of what I value.

And being alone is okay in these stories. But I am a big time homebody introvert.

And I am very Fuck Them.

You can eliminate them all from your life.

Yup. Is like moving to mars alone.
The cost I have paid is a burden itself.

B8t I may be solitary. But I am not capitalizing. I enjoy.

Way. You pick how you play with that. They do their thing. And you get to do what ever you want from there .

Because you have a life, a body, and a time alive .

They set the pins, fine.

You can walk away from b he bowling ally.

I did and know it is sucky and lonely. But I feel light

Absolutely incredible.

NASA Astronaut Reid Wiseman, who commanded Artemis II, took this footage from the far side of the Moon with his iPhone.

Watch with sound on.

@qibhom.bsky.social Heu
Hugs if okay tonight

I see and hear you

We are the heart of this world

Hey I get it. We have great l8ves but can't appreciate it. We are super badass and cannot feel confident. Because we carry it.

But it is not ours. Those fqrs need to carry it. We never asked for or invited it. They were sick fqs.

I never had that. The closest I got was a boss in early HS at my job (a deli- bakery) who said "second d hand clothes can smell but maybe I can give you my kids hand me downs".

Because her kids second hand shot smelled better than the goodwill stuff.

Ugh.

I think I would not have compromised.

Schools are the worst for this and need to be better