this upcoming uranus in gemini has me shaking with my Uranus in Aquarius 1st house + Gemini 5th house...im really pushing boundaries and identity rn

i love being a perverted lesbian

Almost done with the last chapters of my book, 6 years later lmfao

i am actually an incredibly shy person and get crazy anxiety even looking at my messages

ofc i think pain is sexy why tf do u think i have so many piercings

These bouquets of life, they come from cemeteries; the dead awaken in their graves. (OGC)

i hate having treatment resistant depression like wtf do u mean im stuck like this

Praying to the gods is keeping me sane

and the softest touch you'll know is when the earth will cradle your bones

honestly I'm acting incredibly normal for the shit ive been through

more

i fear i am going insane

Wait that last part is interesting, would i want this/wondering what brings me comfort? Also thank you omg

i just feel like all im made for is suffering

if im not made to experience love then i beg whatever god to rid me of the desire for love

how someone feels about me

Ngl I've given up on the idea, i just don't think it's meant for me as much as I've always hoped. Been trying to take a more non-attachmemt approach

oh i spent my weekend doing this lmfao

everyone shut up and praise lesbians right now

screaming into the void time over bye

whatever right you just have to pretend it doesn't cut you deeply to be this way, just smile and pretend while it eats you alive

haha anyways im really cool and sexy and totally not a damaged person

Ave Rex Asmodeus

i don't mean to be so depressed i really want to be happy too

idk how do you expect anyone to understand you when you don't even understand yourself

i hate being such a complicated person. i feel like no one could ever understand or if they wanted to wouldn't want to take the time

"love hurts" but not in the cringe i miss my ex sort of way, in the way that intimacy has scarred you from too young an age and has only meant pain so anytime you step outside of that you feel like you don't deserve it

it's like salt in an open wound to see what you've always dreamed of right in front of you just to know it can never be for you

trapped in cycles of sin and seeking