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Honestly, this is what it’s like 90% of the time 🤣

It really is! Just need to remember not to get too excited and rush things 🤣🤣

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Can’t deal with how cute he is 😭 it’s silly but this is the best I’ve felt about someone in a LONG time

He just asked for a second! Maybe this year won’t be so shit after all 🙏

Had the most perfect first date 🥹

I swear I just shouldn’t book holidays 😣 Sydney - London = tropical storm and halted to the seat for more than 4 hours, Japan = Covid and then 3 weeks after booking Korea all out war breaks out. Maybe I’m just a bad omen 🤣

Oh it’ll never stop 🤣 but thank you handsome 🥹

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Honestly can not wait to get into my pink fluffy bed 🤣

Anyway…idc the whole point of this but I feel better ❤️‍🩹 I’m ready for a nap, I’m happy I’ve vented and I’m going to spend Valentine’s Day playing Fortnite really terribly.

But gays need to do better. We need to remember that we’re not all gym fit. Who you’ve slept with or loved in the past isn’t an excuse to avoid someone. We don’t all have to be prim and proper. Being pushed out because you look or sound a certain way or because of your job is so damaging.

I have always struggled in silence, worn a smile to convince anyone around me I’m not secretly dying on the inside, and I will continue to do so because that’s just who I am. But sometimes I need to let my vulnerability out to move on. I’m ok, I’ll be ok.

A lot of people don’t know me, and that’s absolutely fine, I’m not asking for everyone I try to connect with to want to make the same effort. But sometimes the silence is deafening and the other night I snapped in my own mind. I hit the ground hard and felt the earth shatter at my feet.

I’ve tried to speak to people in a friendly tone, I’ve tried to use dating apps, I’ve tried to feed into a more sexual side too, and 9/10 times I’ve been ghosted, left when someone else better comes along or had no reply whatsoever. It’s sarting to make me feel worthless in all honesty.

At the end of last year, I made a promise to myself that I would try and talk to people more, try to connect and try to step out of my comfort zone, but the experience so far has been one that has made me question if it’s all worth it.

I am not delusional, I understand I’m not a hot pot of tea, but sometimes it’ll just be nice to be able to make a connection and have someone there. I’m not always after dates, and hell my social anxiety eats me up at the thought of them, but to hear the words “I love you” and it be meant…dreams

I’m under no illusion that I have a following, that doesn’t bother me and I’m used to silence, but the week leading to valentines always hits hard. I don’t like to play into the narrative because it’s a weird concept anyway, but like, it sucks when you have so much love and no one wants it

So here’s a little something of what it’s been like in my brain the last few days (mainly leading up to myself snapping)

I’m back after my mini menty b at the start of the week 🙂 and taking a couple days off SM has really helped ground myself. But it’s also good to have a place to use to vent I guess. I’m not a diary user and also feel like everyone will think I’m attention seeking but I like to vent on SM sometimes.

It’s just about ego masked as hardship. It’s exhausting trying to try talk to someone that’s interested for 5 mins while you rub their ego and then ghost you when someone better pops up. I’m just over being nice tbh, so taking a step away before I say something to someone I’ll probably regret 🤣

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Haven’t had a date in almost 3 years! Tried all the apps AND social media yet nothing…maybe I am the problem 🤔

Officially on a very tight budget until the Credit Card is paid off 💀 thank God for 0% interest 🤣😭

Can’t do FCF because my cocks not fat, I am

Since the start of Last week I’ve worked 108 hours with 99 still to go before I get 2 days off. Tired doesn’t even cut it 😭

Someone broke the heater in the work toilet and now I can’t hide for the whole day 😭

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A boy doesn’t swallow and tell

Let’s just say Matt has a throat that most gays dream of. Also taking the piss out of myself simultaneously 🙂

And this is why I never stood a chance 🤣 didn’t even touch the sides