update: I was actually looking forward to going to my therapist's office today after phoning in my past three appointments due to various life failures, but now it has decided to snow and accumulate about it. this has now made the week into a sitcom.

have to go to a funeral tomorrow, I'm on my period, my Steam Deck battery is dead, I inch another year closer to 40 this weekend, and today I absolutely do not want to Talk to anyone at my Talking To People Job, god I have to pick a struggle!!!

Black Tabby really went "we're going to make a Southern American gothic horror and make it 'Oops All Noelle Holidays'" and its doing things to my body and brain

My quickie thematic statement for Scarlet Hollow is "Everyone Is A Daughter/gender-neutral" and I will be adopting this phrase in a "in the end, all girls are like the rose bride" way

it was too soon to forget and I forgot it. I never ever forget dad's and its been almost two decades. I want to crawl into a hole.

was confused why I was suddenly getting texts from family members today. its the anniversary of mom's death. it was only three years ago and I forgot. day ruined now.

I think my quality of life would improve just a little bit if I was allowed to answer emails with "hey. what the fuck are you talking about."

everyone I know is in a long-term relationship and I'm over here like "yeah I've been getting real into baguettes lately"

all I've wanted to do all week is eat bread

In Captivity On the wild, the tame, and the boundary between

I wrote about being an animal johnpaulbrammer.substack.com/p/in-captivity

got fucked in mahjong tonight so i made this to cope

brace yourself for this one . . . .

"Tender is the Flesh"

not serious people!!!!

wow you're telling me that the main character is a book that is stunningly obviously about Hypocrisy is *gasp* a hypocrite? astounding

screenshot of Logan Roy from the show "Succession" captioned "You are not serious people."

finished a book this morning that I had seen others refer to as having a "shocking" ending as some kind of "twist" or "subversion" but it actually was 1000% consistent with everything about the main character if your eyes are ever-so-slightly open about how misogyny manifests

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it has been so hard for me to get up in the morning and be awake for the past two weeks and tried to remember the last time it was this hard and it was before I started taking antidepressants . . . . uh oh Jon! the Lexapro literally is not hitting like it used to

And if you love it when they say the title of the movie in the movie, huge news for you

FINALLY saw "No Other Choice" which is a great movie for people who like "a whole lot of movie." Had some nice sick stuff in it but I especially loved that final (spiritually) sick punchline. "I've always considered myself blue-collar." We sure fucking tell ourselves things to live!!

the bob, the suit cut, the heels, he was running around that church looking like a star otokoyaku but white

Benoit Blanc's look in Wake Up Dead Man was so incredibly gender I'm obsessed with it

yesterday I visited a friend who has a six-year-old daughter, who I've of course interacted with throughout the years, and the daughter said to me umprompted, "I love you, because you're nice" and dang. kids. ;_;

writing an essay about "Wake Up Dead Man", to no one's surprise, because Mr. Johnson simply went "Catholic churches look better on film than evangelical rec room basements" and I gotta overthink everything

looks like my appointment for today ghosted so >:3 Glass Onion time!!

"I antiCIiPATE the TERMinus of GRAvity's rainBOW"

rewatching Knives Out in my quiet last in-office day of the year and I forgot how delightful it is:
1. New England vibes truly impeccable in this film
2. actors YEARN for characters with Quirks!!! they need enrichment!!!

I say this not to earn pity points, just a statement of objective fact - when your parents are dead it makes any conversation about celebrating Christmas real awkward

I am still undecided about what I will do on December the 25th this year (and I do have more than one invitation on standby), but no matter what I bought myself a shrimp ring today, that's real holiday spirit

A grey and red transit bus on the road in a city. The bus’ destination sign reads “NO? ?? ???????”

My response to anything over the next two weeks