Yeah! After meeting so many good people after so many years tolerating that would have been a step back for me!

Now that you mention it: the unfollow warning tactic is manipulative and I would unfollow people who use it even IF I agree with them.

and just dropped a server and a few acquaintances bc they're way too comfortable using slurs casually.

Disappointing.

💛 ill keep going-

I'm trying to believe more that it'll pay off, I'll keep going 💛

Is it worth it to try to share kindness and small pleasantries in a world that seems so disconnected, distrustful, negative and angry?

Am I wasting my time?

This doesn't work with everyone. Many people don't apologize.

But I know I want to do my small part regardless.

What pays off for me isn't the same as what makes things better.

I didn't really owe it to listen but I felt like doing it. See what happens if I broke the chain.

He calmed down. His voice softened. He apologized.

I think the world is losing its heart. Everything's so transactional. I don't want a world run by cost benefit analysis and game theory.

Had a very human moment with a rude customer who just started venting about everything going on with his life that contributed to why our mistake set him off.

He didn't even know why. He was embarrassed bc he never talks his problems with anyone.

Okay so just giving in and going to bed early helped with this

I suddenly can't tolerate work as much.

I think of how I have to wait 5 days to get 1 uninterrupted 12 hour timespan to live and it gets to me.

I hate being tired, I feel like i lost my personality to work.

I miss being the girl that lights up the group chat with unseriousnessn

Frustrated with needed to do a lot over Friday and Saturday morning and being too tired to really -do- anything today.

Tried to start editing for my trails video but trying to figure out a good workflow itself took it out of me.

It was an offline day :/ I just want time to work on my goals!

Referring to hate comments on youtube, tiktok , etc. as Projectionslop

practicing the art of focus and concentration and fighting distraction.

I've been playing puzzle games like lumines to help with that. It's almost immediate feedback in how much worse i play the MOMENT i break my flow state.

Gonna try to draw today with that same mindset!

Over the long term, Video and image generation just isn't worth it and the results are increasingly becoming blander and dull.

I'm not gonna let the stress of seeing it used in my job get to me.

Anyways, I'm no longer as vigilant about its use.

That doesn't mean I condone it but im slowing down on wasting my emotional energy on seeing it.

Why? Because I'm starting to become confident that AI is going to die.

At least in the visual creative space.

Looking forward to the day Gen AI is a bygone thing like 3D TVs.

I now appreciate the imperfection is people's voices over perfectly pronounced forgettable AI, and the passion in an off topic tangent only a human can go on.

People naturally create art without even realizing it.

As a customer service worker? I'm a little bit insulted that customers arent even taking the time to rudely word these emails themselves.

Is this how professors feel when they catch their students plagarizing their work?

I deserve BETTER than this!

Just realized the customer service emails that were getting longer on average were customers running their mild complaints through ChatGPT.

In 2026 not even the Haters are real anymore.

It's bad to push myself to work hard every day, but there was a time in my life I needed to do that.

I'm not saying this to dump, but I want people to have knowledge of my full picture. Especially those who want to be my friend.

The should-dos that don't make sense to me emotionally are hard and draining.

Its a reality that I push myself when I shouldn't, but It feels awful to pretend that side of me isn't there.

Yet I shouldn't make people worry. So I'll make a little space here.

There's a line between expressing who I am as an artist, and giving an ideal experience to people that's essentially who i aspire to be.

The things I can convince myself to do emotionally are easy to do and don't take a lot of energy.

thinking loudly.