some memories

hell, i want a few killing sprees being post T…

big ups to trans guys who post their pre-T pictures bc if i had a comments section full of cis men telling me about how i could’ve been “milking their cocks” if i hadn’t ruined myself with transition i’d go on a killing spree

but somehow it didn't occur to me that “being a girl” meant far more than what shoes I wore until that moment

I’m so glad my comics can feel relatable to someone on the other end of the aisle. I was somewhat “aware” of gender differences around age 7 when I couldn’t play soccer with the boys because the girls had to wear mary janes for our uniform in MX.

thank you, Mina! I put a lot of thought into the way I wrote this so I’m glad it works

i really appreciate the compliment!

some memories

they really should have had women play the beatles, like they do with peter pan

REAL! I’ve known all my life I hate talking and I used to think it was bc of my voice, but now that my voice has changed and I like it more, I’m learning I still straight up hate talking LOL

For like a good ten minutes I sat at my lunch area with just the earbuds in, ANC on and no music. It was incredible. I might need to get some of those loop things.

Highly, highly recommend against being ND and having a mother who hates ND people because she’ll come up to you and tell you about how she wants to double suicide with your autistic brother in the same sentence she tells you she wants to put you in a conservatorship bc you’re depressed.

like it’s not until now that i’m 31 that i’m realizing I don’t have to eat food that makes me gag with each swallow, that I’m not a freak for needing to stim and for sensory seeking, that I can put on earplugs if the sounds of the world are overwhelming. That i can REST WHEN IM TIRED.

did anyone else grow up with a higher support needs autistic sibling and your parents hated having an autistic kid so much that when you came along and weren’t high support needs they decided to not only completely ignore all signs of your autism but forced you to mask and suppress your pain?

my partner got earbuds with noise cancellation. i’ve been borrowing them and slowly realizing i AM one of those autistic people who gets overstimulated by background noise! No wonder I’m always irritable. I wish I’d looked into this sooner.

thank you! there was probably more stuff i forgot but they had me cracking up

panel 1: child asks me “are you married?” i say “i’m not answering that” panel 2: child asks “why not?” i say “why do you want to know?” panel 3: child asks “because if you’re not, i want to make fun of you!” i respond “…and if i am?” panel 4: child says “well that’s just embarrassing!”

panel 1: playing hangman. child asks “can you make the hangman your wife so we know what she looks like?” I respond, “what? no, guys” panel 2: me thinking “someday you’ll learn that guys who look like me don’t usually have WIVES”

panel 1: head instructor says “okay guys, we are gonna pick our professor names” panel 2: child asks “Oh! Oh! Can I be Professor Homosapiens or Professor Homo for short?” panel 3: head instructor says “uh…no…and I don’t want us throwing that word around”. child says “aww”. In the background I’m covering my mouth trying not to laugh. panel 4: me thinking “goddammit, that’s genius. I want to be professor homo!”

panel 1: young girl says to me “excuse me, sir? n keeps asking k to hang out and i know it’s because she likes him and it’s just really upsetting me and i don’t know why” panel 2: me thinking “oh, she has a crush! I’m sure she’ll realize it herself soon. for now maybe i can help her regulate her emotions without getting involved in kid business.” panel 3: i say to her “I can tell you and k are good friends. do you feel like you can trust him to still be your friend even if he hangs out with N?” panel 4: she puts her face in her hands and says “I trust HIM, I just don’t trust HER!” I think to myself “Dang! I forgot how strongly you can feel at 8 years old”

helped facilitate a camp during spring break. these are my stories.

HMMM. I do wake up a lot at night from being achy. Last night I couldn’t be in one pose longer than maybe 10 minutes before something would hurt and i’d have to wake up and flip around

thanks for the advice! i already have a thyroid condition diagnosed and i’ve been back on those meds for months and the fatigue hasn’t been fixed so i think it’s time to look deeper

i’ve had some people tell me to consider hEDS or similar things bc I do have a lot of issues with joints and things but idk.
Right now having a 40 hour work week is having an extremely detrimental effect on my physical and mental health, but I can’t afford not to work full time. Idk what to do.

so i know it’s not ~normal~ to have wildly unpredictable energy levels, having my body crash every few weeks forcing me to call off work, or constantly feeling some sort of ache or malaise but i don’t really know what I could be going thru and doctors already don’t believe me so I guess i’ll deal

I know artisans in other cultures have done this for centuries and I’ve always loved that, but it never felt personal or like it applied to me until now

i used to get really stressed out about mistakes in my knitting or wonkiness in my drawings, but after AI I have grown to really love the human errors in my work. Nowadays it almost feels spiritual to allow an error to stay and not correct it. Like I’m imbuing part of myself into the mistake

it’s so depressing never seeing the trans stories and characters you wanna see, having a story you really want to write to fulfill those desires, but never having the time or energy to put it to paper. maybe soon.

so long as it doesn’t stop it’ll come to every area :(

yes exactly. my boss was telling us to try and stay as neutral as possible. not even so much as a hint of an eye roll or an attitude bc they’re scared ice might escalate and put everyone in danger.

i’m not delusional about how we got here. I knew this country saw me and those like me as a pest the moment I stepped foot here. Still, it’s hard to swallow that we are fully here. The things I read in history books are happening now and happening to my community.

so much of our staff is latino, so many of us are not white. The population we serve is also largely low income and latino. We’re all trying to keep pushing forward and keep a smile on so the kids won’t be scared, but the adults are terrified.

Today at my job at the children’s museum we had to have a discussion about what to do if ICE comes. I was worried this day would come and now it finally has.