7/365 - I love that running. It’s the only time I really get for me. I feel clear and determined afterwards..and proud. Still definitely very slow and huffy, but it’s getting better. My fat bits feel less a part of me now too, it’s hard to explain but I feel stronger, it’s exciting! #sobercurious
6/365 - wore my fancy new Hokas running, they fit really badly, I think maybe a half size too big. Had to stop the run cos my heal and arch were killing. Went home changed back to my old faithfuls and went back out. Me 1 : Hokas 0! #sobercurious
5/365 - took a long walk in the sun today. it was nice but I felt a bit anxious a it was super busy. Had lasagna for dinner and of course the pasta has upset my stomach. Isn’t the definition of madness doing something over and over and expecting different results!? #sobercurious
4/365 today felt like the first proper day of spring. Sunny, some warmth in the air. We cleaned up the garden and spring cleaned the house. Gonna sleep for an age!
3/365 - did a 5k run this afternoon and it felt easier than usual. Feeling content and most importantly hormonally balanced again. Really hard to describe how out of control I’ve felt the last week or so! Excited for a cosy weekend. #sobercurious
2/365 - just back from dinner. Three out of the six of us were not drinking it was nice and relaxed, lots of laughs and I didn’t hog the conversation or accidentally offend some one. I prefer my sober self. #sobercurious
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Thank you Tori, appreciate you. Have woken up with a renewed resolve. You are right I have learned so much. need better ways to cope when I’m sad.
I was so unbelievably sad yesterday, it felt like too much to bear. I had 2. Still, 2 more than I wanted. It soothed me for probably about 10 minutes, and then I felt worse.
So much worse. I then not only felt sad, but also guilty. Now I’m starting again. ❤️🩹 2/2
1/365 - everything in my being has been screaming don’t admit it. But what is the point of it all if I lie about it. I failed yesterday. Not spectacularly, it was more an autopiloted and mundane creep into the familiar. 1/2
63/365- I’m
Struggling to distance myself from people that repeatedly hurt me. I love them, but at this point I’m complicit. Unpicking things is so much more challenging than I expected. #sobercurious
62/365 - today was ok, stayed sober. Remembering why I started HRT. I’d like a period of respite from my feelings. Can’t wait til tomorrow prescription pick up. Blergh. #sobercurious
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61/365 - I ran out of HRT medication on Thursday, should be stocked by Tuesday so I’ve been without for three days.
The irritation and brain fog def creeping in. I’ve had to retreat to bed to read. 😐
60/365 - so my reward for sticking to my guns last night was a beautiful sunny day. Got out early for a run. Hit a pb! Had my weigh in, lost 4lbs in Feb! 🎉
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Thank you 🥰
59/365 - 2 months down! Family visit has been fun. I stayed sober! I was boundaried, and actually it was much easier sober. Bought myself a pair of expensive running shoes (yesterday) as a present. They cost literally half of what I spent on drink in a month 🤯 #sobercurious
Yes, it feels like a big step. Thank you for the pep talk. ✨✨✨
Therein lies the fight for change. I’m learning my relationships with people have to change. People pleasing has always been how I protected myself from turbulence. But you are right, I have agency, and I know it. Have to face the turbulence at some point I suppose.
I may well do that!
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58/365 - I have family visiting tomorrow. They are super heavy drinkers. They’ve already made
plans for Saturday and don’t seem to be taking no for an answer. The love talking about weight too which is super triggering. Can you phone in sick for family meet ups? Asking for a friend 💀 #sobercurious
Haha, yeah same. My stress levels have reduced so massively just simply because I can handle things better! Who knew? I always thought I was drinking to help me handle things 😅
I’m for sure happier, but still very up and down. Feeling the feels and all that!
Wyoming Republicans have banned so-called “compelled speech” regarding pronouns. No one, they proclaimed, should be forced to use someone’s preferred pronouns. And yet, when Senate Chairman Tim French was addressed as “Madam Chairman”, he was not pleased. Not one bit.
You feel frustrated but know you need to redefine what boring means. You know that home doing ‘nothing’ is a million times better than the hell of ‘the bleary eyed, onslaught of flashbacks the next day. 4/4
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misuse cycle for a while.
You create space and time to do things, you reason with yourself, rather than berate yourself, you congratulate yourself for getting through a meal, a night out, a week. You have about as much money as you always have, but the debt and damage gap is beginning to close. 3/4
endless positivity and best of all no anxiety.
What you actually realise is that everything is just a bit more sensible. The highs and lows that you experience while drinking actually just flatten out. This can feel anticlimactic and utterly boring if you’ve been in the alcohol 2/4
57/365 - When i imagined my life sober, i imagined big sweeping changes and everything magically fixing itself. I thought the change would be fabulous and dramatic. I thought I’d suddenly have loads of disposable income, clear skin, bright eyes and massive weight loss, 1/4
56/365 - had another gf day today. Slept like a baby last night .Really must remember how much better i feel the next time i succumb to delicious baked goods.
55/365 - hit all movement goals and managed a whole gluten free day. Had a baked potato with chillie for lunch and a delicious fish pie and Cavalero Nero for dinner. Felt super energised and less bloated. Applying habits from sobriety to my weight loss makes it feel less daunting. #Sobercurious.